Here We Go Again

wouldnt you know it, about 5 or 10 minutes after i posted the last post on tuesday night, HE called me. and he was drunk. and basically it was a here we go again. because it was just the same thing all over again. he started the call of with telling me that the reason that he had called was because he missed me, so i told him that i couldnt call him because he hadnt called me back. i guess that he was so drunk that time that he didnt remember what we had said, so he apologized. anyway the whole conversation was with him being drunk the truth coming out on his side. he said that he loves me (like three times) and asked if i felt the same. i said that i did. and then we were talking (we talked for like a half hour) and he was askiing like what i was wearing and all of that, so i said if you are feeling this certain way that you are ho...y then why arent you talking to your girlfriend where is she and he said that she was away at school. so then i said again if you are saying that you love me so much, then when i said why didnt you want to be with me when we said so. and he said oh i love the city that i now live in. so i said well why didnt you want me to move closer to you like i offered and then you could have stayed in that city. i dont think that he responded to that. i was telling him about the problems that i was having with frank and the rent and everything and i told him that i might be homeless and that i had told him that i might have to stay with my friend in another state if i had no where else to stay and then he made the comment of i guess if you are so close to me (i would be like 4 hours away) that i am sure you will be calling me for like b...ty calls. so i said i dont know maybe would you except them? and he said it depends would you have something that you used to. and i said yes, and then he didnt answer me. and that was the way that he conversation went for about a half hour. basically the whole idea of the call was him telling me that he loved me, and was evidentally wanting me, and along those lines. but of course at no point was it mentioned that we were actually ever going to get back together. booty calls were mentioned by him of course, and not me. at the end of the call, he had said that he was going to call me the next day, so i told him not to because i had my appointments and things to do. so he then said well i will leave it up to you, you can call me when you are ready. and i had said okay, i will call you on thursday. i havent called him tonight, and i really dont feel like it so i am not going to. i have been having major issues at work, and also with the rest of my life. i also had a horrible migraine in the beginning of the day today so i am not going to call him. i just dont want to deal with the emotions that it brings out of me. he had me starting to cry when i was talking to him tuesday night.