Something That I Have Been Discovering

i have recently discovered somethings that i wanted to quickly put here so that when i start getting upset about HIM and what happened, i can remind myself. First of all him drinking so much now, he admitted last night that he is drinking more then he ever has, is a very bad thing. and if i was with him right now, me and him would be having major issues. because i would be trying to stop him from drinking so much, and trying to find out why. he is drinking so much, that he was so drunk that he fell down stairs and hurt his knee. wonderful. so that is reminding me of the one major issue that he had that i couldnt deal with, it was the major reason that i had called a hiatus with him or whatever you want to call it.

the second thing that i have discovered is that i dont think to highly of him anymore as a person. i used to think that he had really good morals and everything, but i have now established, from past and lately conversations and certain experiences with him, that he doesnt. he is supposed to be in a relationship with this girl supposedly, and we all know what he has done and talks about with me. so....not a good person.

a third thing, which should really go under the first thing, but which is such a major thing is that his drinking and issues with it annoy me, and disgust me. and he doesnt seem to remember conversations that he has had when he is drunk (he claims). i am willing to be, that he isnt going to call me tonight like he said, i will be you that he completely forgets.

so the above are all things that i have been feeling lately, along with of course the hurt and pain and everything else. so who knows, maybe reviewing and thinking of these things, and of course adding more if i can think of more, will help me deal and handle this and get over this.