"There's Always Something There To Remind Me"

so i was supposed to call him on thursday because i said that i was going to, but i didnt because i just didnt feel like handling it. i wasnt planning on an exact date to call him after that, because the last conversation that we had on tuesday had me upset, because he is telling me all these things, but there is no point to him saying them. because it seems that no matter what he says to me, and no matter what i say back or what suggestions that i say to him (like i even said that i would move across several states just to be near him/with him. and he still said no) it is still the same thing. so why is he even bothering to tell me these things, he is just killing me more and more. thats all. it is just hurting me more then i have already been, if that is possible. so when i was at work on friday in the morning, first i talked to someone who lived in the exact same city that he lives in now (which is odd because it is a small and rural city and this has never happened to me before) and then not even 20 minutes later i talked to someone with the exact same last name as him, spelled the same and everything. so i am like, thanks for reminding me of all the hurt and pain. so anyway later on at night when i got home, i decided to call him in the hopes that he wouldnt be drunk so that we could have the conversation that i have decided that i want to have which is going to be me telling him not to say these things to me anymore, because he is just hurting me when he says them and then does nothing about them. so anyway, called him and he didnt answer so i left a message and now he didnt even call me back yet. so that is great. he says all this crap and gets me so upset and worked up and then doesnt even freaking answer his phone or call me back. this has me so upset. all the times that i swore that i wouldnt let a man get me this upset. well look at me now.