Life, Please Give Me A Break!!!!

i have been getting so upset about stupid things lately, i am guessing that is just the stress of everything that has been going on. i have been having issues with getting my car fixed, which was due to someone stupid person hitting me while i was stopped at a stop sign, and i called the car insurance company for the other person to try to file a claim against them to try to get my darn car fixed, and i gave them the policy number that i had and they said that they couldnt find that person. so i got so upset that i actually started to cry. i wasnt crying because of the dents in my car which are ugly as heck, i was crying because nothing with me can ever be easy it seems. it always seems like i have to jump through 90 million hoops and do so many things just to get things done that should be simple. so now i have to wait for my police report call them back blah blah blah. that is why i am so frustrated with everything it just seems like nothing is ever easy, and that with all things that i go through i just feel like someone is looking at me and laughing and saying okay she survived that lets see what else we can put her through. she seems to be getting over that ex-boyfriend who left her and didnt come back, lets have him call her up and upset her and set her off again, and then lets have him make it worse by not discussing it with her while sober.

and then of course there is always my husband who seems to get joy out of frustrating me and giving me things to get upset or aggravated about. his latest things to upset me about is saying that he hates the dog, and then listed all the reasons why he does and of course lets not forget my appearance, the way i dress, my tattoos, piercings, etc. and also another thing that he is on is not wanting me to go to visit my best friend in june, and he is very full of reasons why i shouldnt go.

and then of course there is my job situation, my kids, you name it, there is so many things that are spinning around me and it seems like if i blink or take my attention from everything that i am going to lose control of everything. i am getting to the point where i am getting so stressed and upset about everything that i am getting to the exact point that i was at when i first started writing in here. i am just wondering what the point is for all of this. i should definetly go back on those medications, but the side effects were so bad that i didnt want to take them anymore. i dont know, i just wish that i would just have a break from all of this.

i guess right now i am not following the intention that i am supposed to be trying to which was,
i intend to let go of the things that i cannot change.

yeah easier said then done.