"You Can Crawl Back Home, Say You Were Wrong...."

"........Stand Out In The Yard And Cry All Night Long, Go Ahead And Water The Lawn My Give A Damn's Busted....."

from "My Give A Damn's Busted" sung by Jo Dee Messina

so interestingly enough last night at around 11pm he calls me, and said that he was calling me back to make sure that i was okay. he tells me that he is at home, in his bathroom, and it turns out that he is talking to me in his bathroom because his girlfriend is in the other room. and i asked him if he remembered what he had said the other night and he said not really. so i told him all that, and asked him why he would have said all of those things, and he said probably because i am on his mind. so then i asked him why i would still be on his mind, and he didnt answer me. he said that he was drunk and had fallen down stairs and hurt his knee, and that it was killing him, so i said wow you are really drinking a lot arent you, and he said that he is drinking more then ever. and i said why, and he really didnt have an answer just something like because i like it. so i asked about his blood pressure, and he said that he was going to get it checked on monday (tomorrow). but that was it about that. i didnt want to carry it on anymore, he said that his girlfriend didnt mind that he drank so much, so apparently he doesnt care anymore. i wonder how long it willt take her for it to start bothering her, like it did me. i told him about when he says those things to me, how it makes me feel, i even used the beer analogy, so he of course, said his ever famous line, oh i dont mean to hurt you. and he said that he was going to stop saying those things to me when he is drunk (yeah right). and then he said that when he left it wasnt like i cared for him at all anyway, and i said that wasnt true, and besides he didnt give me the opportunity to prove otherwise, he just never came back from his vacation that he was supposedly taking. and then he said that the reason that he says those things is that he would like for me to find someone else to be happy with, and stop mooning over him. or something like that. so i said first of all i dont moon over you, i was fine until you called me and said all that crap again. and secone of all in what twisted way do you think that you telling me that you love me and miss me is going to make me get someone else. that doesnt make sense at all. and i said third i dont want anyone. meanwhile, this whole conversation took like 20 minutes, while he is in the bathroom with his girlfriend in the other room, whatever. anyway he ended it by saying that he was going to call me tomorrow (which would be today) and i told him to call me after the time that i always put the kids to bed, and he said okay. so i asked him if he was working today, and he said something about supposed to be working but that his knee (which he did to himself because he was drunk) was really hurt. so i dont know, i think that all of these drunken conversations are reminding me of why i was getting frustrated with him before. he has gone back to the same way (if not worse) of how he was before with his drinking. so anyway that was it, lets see if he calls me tonight like he said that he would.