"I Still Want You By My Side, Just To Help Me Dry The Tears That I've Cried"

from "The First Cut Is The Deepest" sung by Sheryl Crow

because i am really upset about the fact that he didnt call me back after i left the message for him to call me back last night, i called him again tonight, and he actually did answer his phone and he said that he hadnt listened to his messages yet, so he didnt know that i had called him, and then he said that he was at a bar with his brother watching something and i asked him if he remembered anything about the conversation that he had with me on tuesday, and he said that he remembered some, and then he said something about being sorry if he was a jerk or something like that, so i said that it wasnt that he was a jerk but that he had done it again, and that considering that he was at a bar and their was a lot of noise and that he was drunk that it probably wasnt the time to talk about it. so he said true, and that he would call me tomorrow. so we will see if he does, with the way that he has been lately, he is probably not going to. if he does then i am going to tell him how upset that he made me by saying all of those things again. because it just isnt right. as my best friend put it, and i am really loving this analogy, it would be like if i dangled a beer right in front of his face and then waited until he almost had it in his hand, and then i snatched it away from him and said that he couldnt have it. it is that exact thing that he is doing to me. unless he wants to make something out of what he is telling me, which he has told me many times that he doesnt. so he is just slowly hurting me more and more.