my husband was home all weekend---auuggghhhh!

Okay I am going to start this off with an apology, because I am usually really good with keeping this updated, but so many things have been happening that I have not been able to. One of the major things that has been going on is that my husbands work pulled the same you are moving to slow thing, and they made him turn right around on Saturday and go back home, and they also told him not to come in on Sunday. And I guess that they told him that he could come in on Tuesday (today) and that they would be giving him 5 days to straighten out (I guess to get faster). Or he is fired. So this is not good. Considering that this is the fourth job (or fifth I think, I lost count) that has told him that he is too slow, he is realizing now that there is an issue. He is claiming that he is doing the best that he can, but apparently it isnt good enough. So it remains that either he isnt moving fast enough because there really is something wrong with his health as he is claiming, or that his mind is just rebelling against him because he doesnt want to his occupation anymore. The problem is that if this job fires him obviously it doesnt make sense for him to get another job of the same occupation, just to have it for a couple of weeks, and then lose it again. And all he has ever done is this same occupation. He could just take something to have something, but the thing is that he probably wouldnt be able to pay what he has to pay with that salary. What is upsetting me is of course if he doesnt have a job, he cant pay the rent, and then we are in the street again, and I will have to figure out what I am going to do. Because I have went over my bills many times and I just couldnt get more than 200-300 dollars my cutting and reducing my bills, and that would be the only money that I would have per month for rent. So that wont get me anywhere. So I dont know what I will do if I lose another house. I will probably lose my mind, and flip out like I got really close to doing when the hurricane took away my apartment. Another thing that is really worrying me is that he was so depressed last night, it was like he had given up. He was just resigning himself on losing the apartment, and us getting separated again. Not that I really care about us getting separated again, I feel like we already are. And however mean that might sound, I cant help it. He is constantly angry and yelling at me, he is soooo unpleasant to be around. I am really worried about losing another home, and if it was just me I wouldnt care. But I dont want to put my kids through this again. They have already been through so much. And I know that regarding my mental state, I will probably flip out. I dont think that I will be able to handle it again.