She's says there's the one I love the most, this lifes not far behind."

"Let Her Cry" sung by Hootie and the Blowfish
(i know, i know its old school, i like it though!!)

I of course havent heard from HIM, big surprise there, i was really surprised that i didnt hear from him over the weekend last weekend, considering that seems to be his favorite times to call me is on the weekends when he is drunk. enough on that subject, as you can see from the posts that i have already put about him today, i think that is enough about him for today.

on other subjects, i now have established another company that i can just see that i am going to have to start arguing with. i have completed the arguing with my cell phone company having received the cell phone and completed my end of what was said. but now it seems that i am going to have to start arguing with my car insurance company. i was stopped at a stop sign for about a minute or two waiting for an opening in traffic when all the sudden a car going at least 30 miles per hour smashes into the back of me. so okay, i did the correct thing and even though the stupid you know what who hit me was sobbing and telling me not to i called the cops. made a report called my insurance, the whole thing. so i get my car estimated by my car insurance as i am told that i am supposed to and they estimate it at like 590 and i have a 500 dollar deductible, so that means i am going to get 90 dollars to fix my car. yeah, thats going to get me really far. so i have to call them now and "discuss" this with them, becuase if someone hit me, i shouldnt have to pay my deductible, even the officer who came to the scene of the accident told me that if i had a deductible to tell me insurance to go after their insurance for it. so maybe then can do that i dont know. i have never had to deal with anything like this.

as for the husband, i suppose that we are okay. he was really nice last night and i was nice and we had a nice night. which felt really good to have. if only all nights could be like that, but anyway. him only working one job is getting to me though. he keeps whining that he doesnt have any money and that things for him are so tight, but he isnt even trying to look for a day job to replace the one that he got fired from. which is then ridiculous for him to whine about. and i also now have to hear that the rent might have to be late, because it is due tomorrow which is also the day that he gets paid from his job. so he was saying that he didnt know how he was going to be able to get it and cash it tomorrow. so i told him if he just got it and cashed it, to bring home the money for me and that i would do the rest. which means that tomorrow night, after i get out of my doc appt at 8pm i am going to have to go get money orders and then go drop the rent. which i dont mind doing all that, i am just stressing about all of that actually happening. i hate that he is so irresponsible that i have to worry about this stuff. i wish that i had a man that i said the rent is due, and about 2 days or even the day that it was due i didnt have to worry about it, i knew that it was in my hand with no problems. but i doubt if that will ever happen with him. i also dont like dropping off the rent at the office, because it is the bldg next to it that i used to live in that got destroyed and condemned in the hurricane and looking at all of that just reminds me of what i lost. so that will be more things to look forward to doing tomorrow.