Getting Over You---Poem

It has been 4 days since I have spoken with you.
If I don't speak with you today it will make 5.
This is something that I realized that had to be done.
But why is getting over you so hard.
I had told you that if you didn't call me back and give me your number,
that you would never hear from me again
because through no fault of mine I didn't have your number anymore.
You had said that you would call me the next day.
You didn't, it has now been 4.
I found your number somewhere,
so I can now call you.
But do I really want to?
It is so hard getting over you.
It hurts so bad not to talk to you,
but I am not sure what hurts worse,
not talking to you and missing you,
or when I talk to you hearing about your life without me.
Some people say that I should just end all contact with you,
and then other say that because I care about you so much
I should keep in contact with you.
But the amount that I care about you obviously isnt returned,
because if it was you would be here with me.
Instead of hurting me like this,
by telling me about how good you are doing without me.
And I am sure that you are not hurting me on purpose,
you had said before that you never meant to hurt me,
but unfortunately that is something that you did and are still doing.
So what should I do?
It seems that either way that I choose hurts and will hurt.