I Will Remember You, Will You Remember Me? Don't Let Your Life Pass You By, Weep Not For The Memories."

from "I Will Remember You" sung by Sarah McLaughlin

okay, so HE called me yesterday and just wanted to talk, and then of course came the inevitable question, do you have it yet? so i said no, even though i did have it i didnt tell him that because i didnt feel like having that conversation at that moment. so i said to him you know you are just calling me all the time because you just want to see if have it. and he was like no, i am calling you the same amount that i did before all this happened. so i said well why are you calling me so much you call me like every other day or every 3 days, why is that. so he said that it was because he cared about me, and wanted to make sure that i was okay. so i told him that i was trying to decide if i wanted to talk to him anymore, because i couldnt handle talking to him so much, and i explained why. so he said okay, and i said i didnt know what i wanted to do, so he said that he would leave it up to me. so i said okay. so i said that once i knew something about my period that i would call him about it, and tell him what i had decided from there. so he said okay. so tonight at around 8pm i called him back and told him that i had it, and he said that he had just woken up because he was feeling sick and asked me if he could call me back later on tonight, and if not tomorrow, so i said call me on thursday, and he said okay, and asked about if it was okay because of what we had discussed. i said that it was fine, and that we could discuss it then. and he wished me a happy valentines day like 4 times, and then said that he would talk to me thursday and we hung up.

then he called me back like an hour later, and said that he was sorry that he had hung up so abruptly but that he had just woken up, and he said that he appreciated that i told him quickly and wished me a happy valentines day like 3 more times. and then he said that he was going to leave it up to me, and that when i wanted to talk to him that i could call him. so i said that what we had agreed upon was fine for thursday and that i would talk to him again at that time regarding that. so he agreed.

when i talk to him then i am going to tell him that i dont want to completely break off contact like i had said originally, but i am going to tell him that maybe he call me once every 2 or 3 weeks, instead of once every 2 or 3 days. and maybe that will make it better for me. because i just dont know if i can break contact off completely but what i do know is that it cant go on the way that it is. i have had several opinions on this, and it seems like the major opinion is that i should just stop talking to him all together. but i just dont know about that. it seems like whichever route i take that it hurts.