All The Things That I Wanted To Say---Poem

I didn't have the opportunity to say everything that I wanted to say in the beginning,
then in the end when I did say it, it was too late.
Because due to your reasons, you heard what I was saying,
but didn't listen.
I wonder what would have happened if I had told you earlier?
If it would have made a difference,
or if the end result would have been the same?
I guess that is something that I will never know.
Because I even asked you that question one day,
and you said that you didn't know.
So if you didnt know the answer,
then I guess that I never will.
What I do know, is that for me,
this seems like it is unresolved.
You coming back just made it worse,
because you left again very quickly.
For you this seems completely closed,
you have a new life now that you are happy with.
I still think about what we had,
and I miss you horribly.
But you must not feel the same way,
or I wouldnt have to miss you like this,
because you would be here with me.
It seems that the only thing for me to do is let go,
because it seems like we will never be together again.
And people are telling me not to contact you anymore.
Because even though it hurts now,
they are saying that it will hurt even more in the end.
And I suppose that they are right.
So I am going to have to try to do what I did before,
block you out of my mind, and try to forget a lot of things.
It is very hard, because I always think about all the things that I wanted to say,
but didnt until it was too late.