I Surrender---Poem

I throw my hands up in surrender to my life.
The way that I live,
doesn't seem fair.
All I do is wait for something else to happen.
I used to have a fairly good life,
with not as many problems or issues.
But now it seems I just go from one issue to another.
It wasn't always like this.
But the life I had before was taken away one fateful morning.
Who knew that a natural disaster could destroy your life as you know it?
It could take away your home and most of your belongings,
that you had worked so hard to achieve.
Then with that your boyfriend, your dog.
It doesn't seem fair.
How everything can be taken from you so abruptly.
So now, you are left with the aftermath.
You are left with the job that you work at 5 days a week,
that just pays you bills and lets you barely scrape by.
You are left with a man that can barely hold a job,
and can't be depended on.
(Which is why you left him in the first place.)
You are also left with a life that is so hard to live,
you wonder most of the time is it worth it.
And you are left missing the things that you will never have back.
Things that were taken from you against your will.
The life that you had taken for granted before is one of them.
The other one is the man that you took for granted,
who is gone and in someone else's arms now.
But you can't have any of that back,
because it was taken from you and won't be returned.
It is very hard to accept that.
Life seems so worthless to you,
as you go through it day after day,
just trying to survive.
And it seems like you are just living to get through the day.
With nothing being looked forward to.
How can anyone survive like this?
It is difficult.
Which is why I throw my hands up in surrender,
just hoping that things will get better.