"I Just Called To Say I Want You, Come Back Home.

"Picture" sung by Sheryl Crow and Kid Rock

you reminded me of brighter days, i hoped that you were coming home to stay
i cant understand why we're living life this way
i thought about you for a long time, cant seem to get you off my mind.
lord i wonder if i'll ever change my ways
i put your picture away, sat down and cried today.

well not to much to say about HIM, i have been dreaming about him a lot, he called me a couple of times and we had brief conversations, as i said i am not calling him and i am trying to distance myself from him. i cant handle it anymore. i did find out that i am not pregnant, i was happy that i wasnt, but part of me was also sad, because i do really want a baby. and it would have been part of him. but i dont want a baby that way, i want it with someone that i can depend on.

my husband, (told you this would happen), in the short period of about a week to a week and a half managed to lose both of the jobs that he had, and has just gotten one job at night that he just started. so now he is still short one job, and when i asked him about looking for another one, he said that it might be awhile cause he doesnt see himself doing the same career that he has been doing for the past sixteen years at both jobs. so that is wonderful. i suggested to him that he just take what he can get for now, and then he look for something else while he has that, but that didnt go over well. i can just see it happening, what happened before is going to happen again, he is going to lose his jobs not be able to pay his share of the bills, and we will be evicted again. this is like deja vu, all over again. i wont be able to handle it if it happens again, i will lose it. i do know that if it does happen that this was it. i had told him that this was the one and only second chance that he was going to get so if he screws this up, this is it. i will file my divorce papers very quickly after.