Saturday, February 25, 2006

"I cant make you love me if you dont, you cant make your heart feel something it won't."

"I can't make you love me" sung by Bonnie Raitt

well guess who hasnt called me? yeah, you guessed it. HE hasnt. so far it seems that the thought of everyone that i mentioned it to was that he was so drunk that night that he didnt even remember that we had that conversation, or that i said that. and before we had that conversation the way that we had left it was that he was going to honor my request for some time away, and that i was going to call him when i was ready to talk to him. so if what they are saying is right, that would be why i havent talked to him. whatever. i really dont know what i am doing about this anymore. i am miserable because i havent talked to him, but then again when i was talking to him i was miserable everytime i hung up with him because i was reminded that i wasnt with him anymore in the new life that he had built without me, and that i wouldnt be with him again. so i guess either way i am miserable. i am so tempted to call him, i actually stare at my phone (because i now have the number) and consider calling him. but i havent yet. i dont know what i am going to do about this.

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