My Attitude

my attitude, being frustrated and upset and depressed about everything, has of course lasted through yesterday and into today. things havent gotten better, i am not feeling better. last night i felt so bad that it took me about a half hour to fall asleep and then i woke up late because i had felt so bad that i forgot to set the alarm, which wasnt a major thing because at least i wasnt late to work (i just didnt get my overtime) and my daughter was late to school by 5 minutes. so at least it wasnt that big of a deal that i was late to work. i felt pretty yucky all day at work though, i was blowing my nose and sneezing all over the place. i have been thinking about whats going with this guy, and even though it incredibly saddens and depresses me it isnt like i couldnt say that i didnt see it coming, because i did. i always had the feeling that it wouldnt last and that our time was limited together, it was just a matter of when that is all. it really upsets me though because no matter how much i was trying not to get attached, i was and am. even though i was trying really hard not to be. so it is going to be very upsetting when it is officially over, which i know isnt a definite thing now, but i am just expecting it to happen due to everything that has been going on with him and the jobs and his schedule. health wise i am still doing about the same unfortunately, which is even more upsetting and depressing to me because it just seems like i am never well.