well my husband made me incredibly mad when i woke up in the morning yesterday and got into my car because i realized that he had driven my car, now for most people this wouldnt be that big of a deal for their husband to drive their cars, but my husband doesnt have a liscense, and also didnt even tell me that he is taking my car. because that is what it is, is my car, i wasnt with him when i got it, and i make the payments on it every month, therefore it is my car. so that made me mad, i knew that he had driven it because i noticed that things were different and out of place from the way that i always leave it, and also i noticed that my gas gauge was lower than usual. then when i started yelling at him for taking my car, he started it off my lying to me and saying that he didnt take it, then he finally admitted that he had taken it just to go for a ride. so of course the first thing that is going through my mind is that he used it to see a bimbo, which he of course again claimed that it wasnt true. so that was that, in the end he got mad at me that i was making such a big deal out of him driving my car, umm hello, of course i am going to. he didnt even tell me that he was going to take it, and then he tried to lie about it. so finally he started getting so mad at me that i just let it go and dropped the subject. he of course said that he wasnt going to take my car again, yeah right, whatever i believe that one. so when i got off work we went to kmart like we had said that we were going to, to do some shopping for our kids, his sisters kids, and his dads step kids, which was nice. and then when we were getting ready to leave, he said to me if i needed anything like 3 times, so i said no dont worry about it, and he was like come on come on i will get you something. so i said okay and found a pair of jeans and he bought them without me even trying them on. and amazingly enough they fit awesome i actually wore them today, and have them on in the pictures that are on here on this post. and then he said that i could get a shirt to, but i couldnt find a nice one so he said that he would buy me one in the next place that we went to or when i saw one that he would give me the money for it. i was shocked, because this is so unlike him. he always worries about himself and never spends money on others. and then he paid the bill at kmart with everything which was 160.00 and then bought us dinner too to take home and eat, so that was amazing. and then if that wasnt amazing and weird enough, when we went to bed last night, he was laying down like dead and was falling asleep so i said to him joking (which i do this a lot and never get a response from him, like i said it had been like 2 months) aww, guess ur not going to give me some tonight, huh. and he actually pounced on me, and we did. and it was really freaking good, i am talking that i didnt have to work for my big "o" i had it in like 4 minutes, literally. which is even more amazing because have had to work for it (especially on that sat night, even though it was good, it took me a reallllyyyy long time, and it takes me a while, this was incredible how quickly i got it. so anyway, that was another really weird thing, because i made that comment and he literally pounced on me, i dont know maybe i shouldnt be suspicious thinking that something is up all the time, maybe there isnt anything going on. it is just weird how different then usual he is acting. well lets see how he keeps acting, when he gets off work on saturday we had made plans to go to walmart and get a few things for him, and also to look for a shirt for me (all of this he would be paying for) he gave me 60.00 to hold for this last night, but now that his mom gave us a gift card for walmart, i will bet that he will want that cash back and use the gift card. he also (without a fight at all, which is very strange) gave me 50.00 for groceries last night, and 350.00 for the rent to hold for him, without any argument, i am telling you it is like a alien took over his body. not that i am complaining about it but still.
big surprise havent heard anything from the guy still, last time was friday night, i am sticking by my vow to myself that i am not going to contact him, let him contact me then i will start talking to him or whatever way that he contacts me i will respond, but i am not going to be the one to make the first contact again, today would make the fourth day that he hasnt contacted me and that is getting pretty bad now. it is getting to the point that i am so annoyed with the whole situation that if he lets too much time go by i might just tell him when he does contact me that i dont want any part of him. but probably not though, because if he wants to end it i want him to be the one to do that, that way i can tell him that i think that he is being really stupid and also that i wont take him back again, because that is true. if he breaks up with me again, i will be done. if he really wanted to be with me, i am sure that he could figure out a way. it will still upset me if he does break up with me, but with so many days so far that he hasnt made any contact with me at all, that is the direction that i am seeing that this is in right now. unless i am seeing it wrong, but honestly there are so many different ways that he could contact me just to say hi (cell phone, text, instant message, and email) and hes not so what does that mean? to me it seems like he is phasing me out, unless i am wrong. i dont know. i am upset about it, but i refuse to contact him, let him do his thing, whatever that is.
well on another note, i went on a sort of cruise today with my job, on a yacht. it was really nice, we left work at about 10:30am and got back to work at 3:30pm and they told us that we could go home, which was really nice to, because that gave us an hour and a half that we had gotten off work early. it was nice on the boat they took us on the intercoastal, it was open bar on the yacht, we had appetizers, then we had a nice sit down lunch, and dessert. and we took a chartered bus there and back. and i got to spend time with my friends from work who i sit with and eat lunch with everyday, those are the girls that i would say that i am closest too at work. so that was nice. me and 2 of the other girls (or at least one of them, the one that i am the most closest too) are supposed to be going out this saturday night, we arent 100 percent sure of what we are doing yet, but so far it sounds like a nice dinner, and then a bar for a few drinks and games of pool or something like that. which sounds nice, it doesnt even matter to me right now what we are doing, it just sounds good to get out and hang out with the girls and have a girls night out. i had a few issues today with my problem that i gave in to a few days ago, my daughters father noticed and instead of being concerned he acted very angry and was screaming which definetly doesnt help that type of situation, and then also one of the supervisors of another dept noticed and when i gave her my excuse she didnt believe me, and said like uhhuh okay, so i just hope that she doesnt say anything to anyone because i dont want anyone bothering me about it, that wouldnt be good. i just want to be left alone about it and handle it my own way. it isnt something that i am happy about, but it is something that i deal with and am trying to get a grip on my own. anyway here are some pictures from today:
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