Gonna Harden My Heart/Merry Christmas

i am not going to blog a lot about my issues or whine a lot today, because it was christmas. the reason for the title harden my heart of this blog, is because the guy of course didnt contact me today, which deep down i thought would happen, but couldnt believe that he would be that much of an ass. well he was, cause i havent heard from it today. and that is all that i am going to say about it today, i dont want to get into it, being that it is christmas. all that i will say is that i am just happy that christmas is over, i have been cooking and baking for the past three days. i had christmas at my house, my husband was home, my kids, and my parents came over. it was a nice day, the kids had a nice time, got a lot of presents, the food was really good, and everyone else had a nice time too, which was all that mattered. and me and my husband have been getting along okay lately, which is really good, he has been nicer and more loving then usual, which is weird. i am not questioning it though, i am just going with it, and hope it doesnt end. he has even been talking about what he is getting me for my birthday which is this friday. i have no major plans for my birthday, other then probably napping, and maybe doing a little clothes shopping by myself. my parents are going to watch my daughter as usual and my son special for me (cause he has no school that day too), i would have had to work but i had the day off work for my birthday because i had requested it. everyone that i know, friends family etc, has to work that day, so there is nothing i can do with anyone. and my present to myself for my birthday is to have some time to myself, with no kids, so that means that my parents would have to watch them, so i cant go out with them and have no kids. so i am choosing no kids, my mom said that she was going to have a little something for me when i got there at like 4:30pm to pick them up though, like dinner and a cake which is nice for her to do. if she didnt do that i wouldnt really have a birthday celebration. so that should be nice. i am to tired right now, or i would post some pictures from today, i will try to post them tomorrow.