HE called

this morning to ask how everything was. i told him that i was going to the mall and getting more piercing, i just got 4 more holes this morning, so now i am up to 5 holes in each ear, plus of course the belly piercing and the tattoo. i am considering when i get my tax return back taking like 200 dollars out of that to get another tattoo, because all the time that i bust my butt, i get nothing out of it. i need to have some fun with some of that money. but anyway, not to get off the subject, the conversation was fairly short he said that he was at work and was just checking up, but of course he asked how are things on the period front, so i said not yet. and then i said what were you just calling me to see if i had it yet? and then my phone disconnected. so i dont know if he heard me say that or not. i just havent decided how to handle that, i guess i am just going to tell him i got it and then just let him go. because i am just torturing myself by continuing to talk to him, and it is going to hurt me, a lot, in the beginning when i dont talk to him anymore like it did last time when over a month went by, but towards the end of that month i was starting to deal with it more, so that is what i am going to have to do. it is going to hurt in the beginning but eventually hopefully i will get over it.

the husband has been getting even more on my nerves than usual, not only did he lose his jobs and is down to one job right now and keeps saying that he should be able to pay the rent on time, but that it is going to be close, and notice the SHOULD. but not only that, he has been telling me that he would be cleaning up the house because it was a disaster, and he has been saying that for like the past 4 days. and he hasnt done it. so the house has been looking like a tornado hit it, and he has been sleeping instead of doing anything. he hasnt been affectionate towards me, he basically acts like i dont exist. he doesnt even touch me. so he went to sleep this morning and told me to wake him up at 12pm, before i left to do what i had to do. everytime i tried to wake him, (it is now 1:30pm) he has cursed or yelled at me, saying that he doesnt want to get up right now. well, so much for us spending a little bit of time together. all of this is just pushing me further and further away from him, it is going to cause me to do something that will require a lot of thought first.