Sigh Sigh Sigh Sigh Sigh

never a dull moment that is how it seems that it is. always something new or something going on, never just a relaxing day is how it seems. i felt better about the whole my working not spending with the kids thing, and actually had a fairly relaxing and good day. i was in a good mood for most of the day, and me and the kids had a pretty good day. we watched movies, played outside for a few minutes, went grocery shopping, and my daughter finished her work to turn in at school tomorrow. which is good, i am happy that she finished all of it, she did whine and throw a few fits but other then that it was okay. it all got done, and we had a pretty good day. i am even more broke now because i of course had to go grocery shopping and my husband had borrowed that money out of the money that i had saved for groceries, so i didnt get a few things that i wanted, and then the other things i had to get out of my personal money, so now i am down to 7.00 of my own personal money too. sigh. when he came home from his day job, we discussed the money situation and the fact that he is still behind on the rent by like 400.00 and also that he owed me the 75.00 that he had borrowed which he said that he would give back to me tomorrow and also the money that he said that he would help me out with because i had missed the days of work because i was sick the next week. i forget to mention the money that he had said that he would help me with for me to put up for my sons birthday party too. but anyway, he said that it wouldnt be a problem, that the two jobs that he has would be able to take care of it without a problem, and the great thing about them is that they alternate weeks, that they pay, so he actually ends up getting a paycheck for a full two weeks of pay every week. but all that is up in the air now, because he came home very early tonight from the night job, which he hasnt had for very long at all now, probably not even 2 weeks, and said that they had basically sent him home because they werent happy with what was happening tonight, he claimed that the guy that he has been working with tonight on his station (he is a chef) was messing him up on purpose and not getting things ready for him to cook. he claimed that it is because he doesnt want him there because he is so good that he is worried that he will be replacing him. he said that he tried to explain that to his boss but that either his boss didnt want to hear it or didnt believe what he is saying. so he asked if he wanted him to come back on his next day to work which is tuesday, and he said that he didnt know or something like that. so who knows now if he even has this job anymore, this job that he was so excited about having, and that was also supposed to get him out of this hole with not being able to pay our rent or his bills that he had dug himself into. he is saying that he is going to talk to the boss tomorrow and ask him for a chance to work on his own and prove himself to him, but who knows if they will give him that chance, or even want for him to work for them again. so the way that it looks now, he might not have that job anymore. and he tried to call the other job that he had before this one at night, which he also wasnt at very long, and he left them very suddenly and not made them happy, but he said that they didnt answer their phone, so who knows. knowing the way that he had left them, they probably wouldnt want him back either. sigh. sigh. sigh. i just want him to get back on his feet, and stop flipping me out by him being so behind. it is really upsetting me. as of right now he is 400.00 behind on the rent, and the rent is going to be due again, which is another 1025.00 on the 1st which is only 12 more days from now. sigh. so i mentioned to him that my friend is probably coming over on saturday night, just to let him know, so he asked me why i was telling him, so i said just in case he was home, and he said that now wasnt a good time to mention that. well whatever, i just wanted to tell him before i forgot all about it. my daughters father called me several times today, to check on my daughter and her progress with her schoolwork and all of that, never once did he apologize for the way that he had acted yesterday or treated me, instead he wanted to know when i was going to be coming over to clean his house again, because supposedly i still owe him 2 more cleanings from the money that he gave me for the orlando trip (which was only 100.00), i remember the agreement as being only 1 more cleaning for a total of 2 cleanings, but anyway. then he mentioned if i wanted to buy his house that he was planning in selling it next year, and moving back to his country because he doesnt want to deal with any of this anymore, because being aggravated and dealing with all of this was a danger to his health. blah. blah. no apology to me he just started whining. so anyway i said no, i didnt want to buy it because it was too small (it is only a 2 bedroom) and the next that i moved or bought something it would be a 3 bedroom or bigger. so he really dropped the subject from there, and i didnt pursue it. what i didnt mention was that if he moved back to his country he wouldnt get to see his daughter, but maybe for once or twice out of the year, for vacations and that would be about it. but i am sure that he knows that. he wouldnt expect me too send her to another country to live with him. that would be insane. i just hope that everything works out with what is going on right now, even though i was complaining about the fact that he was going to be work on all the nights that i could be going out, i didnt want him to not have the job before he at least got caught up on everything. and then of course for the even slight possiblilty for me to eventually be able to stay home and take care of the kids, he would have to have the two jobs so that wouldnt happen with him having only the one job too. sigh. sigh. sigh.