Most People Are Not Good, They Suck

i remember reading something that said that most people in general are good people, i just wanted to say that most people arent they suck. the reason that i am saying that is because not including my 2 children, i had invited six children to my sons birthday party on saturday, and just one child showed up. and that was my friend that lives about an hour away, so she lives the farthest out of everyone that i had invited. she is also moving to somewhere that is about an hour and a half or two hours away on june 1st, which just figures even more. i knew that everyone else wasnt going to be going by saturday morning, but one person that i work with was supposed to be going with her son, and then this other friend that lives an hour away. so that would have been two kids out of the six. but she didnt go, didnt call me or anything ahead of time. i called her like 15 minutes after the party had started, and she wasnt there. and she didnt answer and called me back saying that she was stuck at some church rehearsal but that she was rushing to leave, and that she would call me in 20 minutes and let me know what was going on. she never did call me back. and what sucked even more is that i had to pay for her son even though he wasnt even there. (because the rule with where i had booked the birthday party was that you had to pay for a minimum of four children whether they all showed up or not. so that was what i had to do. which sucked. so anyway, she called me today (the day after the party) and said that she was sorry, that she got stuck there, it took longer then she expected, she was very sorry, blah, blah. and that she would give me the present that she had gotten for my son tomorrow, and again she was very sorry. so i guess that i cant really be that mad, because at elast she is going to still give my son the present that she had bought for him even though she couldnt make it. i guess. i am still pretty disappointed with everyone that didnt come. but at least my son had a really good time, that was all that mattered anyway. so who ended up being there was me, my husband, my son, my daughter, my friend, her daughter (who is about 4 months older then frankie), and her other daughter who is 7 months old. so there wasnt that many people there at all, considering the amount of people that i had invited and wanted to come. but again, oh well, i have to keep reminding myself that all that mattered was that he had huge amounts of fun. i am just more disappointed with everyone that i know, and that they didnt seem to put forth that much of an effort at all to come. but anyway, i am going to stop ranting about that right now. or at least try to stop ranting. i took a lot of pictures, so once i get them developed and put on picture disk i will post the good ones on here.

my friday night was interesting, i did end up going out with my friend that i had said that i was going to, and it ended up being fun and interesting both. we went for dinner first, at this fun mexican place where they had like bull riding and because it was the night before cinco de mayo and at midnight it because cinco de mayo they a promo going on there too, giving out beads and stuff. so that was fun too. right after we were done eating, my friend (that the guy i hooked up with stays with) called me and said that he had told her to call and translate. so he was asking where was i, so i said that i was out, with my friend who was a girl, and i said where i was. which was really close to where they were. so he was said something about whether he had given his permission for me to go out, and i dont know if he was joking or not, but i said something like i dont really care. and then he was saying something about caring for me, and really feeling something for me, and just getting really mushy. and he said that he wanted me to come over there right then, so i said that i couldnt then but maybe in a little while. so he said okay, just to call my friend when i was there, and she would let me in. so i said okay, but did make a comment about how i have my period, and basically therefore didnt want to, you know. so he said something about not wanting me only for that and that was it. so anyway. after that me and my friend that i was out with went to the club, which was her first experience being in this type of club so it was interesting for her. usually the whole time that i am out i have at least one or two guys hitting on me or looking at me, and of course this time was no different. i had one guy right when we first got there (just being out not at the club), i had another few guys in the restaurant, then of course in the club forget it. i had three guys dancing with me (one at a time of course) and one or two that i also saw looking at me when i was there. and one that was trying to talk to me when i was trying to leave and was trying to be funny blocking my way to get me to talk to him. and of the three guys was hugely unattractive but i was being nice and dancing with him anyway, until he was rubbing his thing all up on my leg, and it was hard. ewww. i stopped that crap really quick. anyway, my friend while we were in the club actually had a few guys trying to dance with her, which was nice. good for her. even though she kept turning them down, and didnt want to dance with them, at least that should have made her feel good. i would think. so after that my feet were killing me, and i had blisters on my feet. so we left, i dropped her off at home, and went to my other friends house. called her when i got there, and he met me at the door. and not that much happened. we cuddled and snuggled, i am know that he wanted more to happen, but with my period and everything else, i didnt want to, so dont know if he was irritated or not about that, who knows. i did warn him ahead of time though. then my husband called and he saw my phone and that it was ringing and who it was, and he asked in very good english who that was. so i answered him in bad spanish i am sure that it was my sons father. and he didnt say anything else. i asked if that was okay, and he said yes. not that it mattered if it was okay i guess, but still/ the cuddling and snuggling that we did was nice, i enjoyed it. he really likes sleeping with you, and snuggling with you. i had him set the alarm because i had to leave early to be back home, i had him set it for 6:30am. so when it went off i gave it back to him, said bye to him and left. but i guess that he didnt reset the alarm, because the next day my friend called me and asked me what time i left her house, i told her and she said she had asked because he was late to work. but that he wasnt really mad about it or anything. which was good, because he should have been responsible and reset the alarm when i handed it to him, instead of just turning it off. but anyway. then i talked to her very briefly today, and she said that she had the money that i had lent to her, so i said that i should be able to pick it up from her on wednesday. and she said okay that she should be home then. she also said that her long absent husband had just gotten home yesterday, and she sounded not to happy about that. so i asked if he would care if i was over there, and she said that she didnt really know, because even though she is married to him she doesnt really know him. yeah okay, that makes sense. i was asking that in case i end up staying there, and me and him end up you know, like we have been, that he wouldnt care, or if he would and say something or not want us to and get upset. oh well, guess that is a wait and see thing, if that even happened who knows. and now also with him home, i know that the kids were sleeping in bed with her before because it was just her, now i would imagine that he will be in bed with her, and that the kids would be in the other room with the guy. i would think, but then again who knows, i do seem to remember her making a comment about her husband being on the couch or something before. i think. when they werent speaking. i dont know, i know i have my issues. but so does she. i also know that the guy was going back to his country, i think for a little while, maybe a month? i dont remember if that was what it was, but i think that she had said that he was going to be leaving the beginning of next month. not that i think that this would develop into a long term relationship or anything like that, because the fact that he doesnt speak english, or hardly any english anyway, and i dont speak hardly any spanish is definetly an issue, among other things like the fact that he doesnt reside in this country, that is another one. so i know that this most this will most likely add up to is what it is now, just a fling i suppose. i am having a fling with a 22 year old incredibly hot bodied dominican, who is very well endowed, and knows perfectly what to do in bed too. wow, who wouldnt want that right? so why does this feel off to me at times? then again that could probably be because i am not medicated anymore. like at all. i stopped taking basically all of my medication. i finally got the prescriptions resolved for the asthma at least, the doctor called me in (correctly this time) two new medications that i have never been on before, which are supposed to equal the other one that i had been on. so at least this should keep me from having an asthma attack, so at least this is one less thing that i have to worry about. hopefully they work, and also hopefully i dont have any reactions to them. as for the other medications, i dont know what to do about them yet, i am trying to cope without them, especially the depression medication, but it is hard. i can even tell the difference in my personality, and in my opinion when i can even tell that there is a difference that is a problem. well, at least my feet and the blisters are feeling better, i had given them a pedicure, and taken care of the blisters, and this weekend i have been wearing sandals that i had to buy that wouldnt come near the blisters to rub on them, so they have been doing better. so now tomorrow for work, i am going to have to wear the same sandals that i have been wearing this weekend, and hope that they dont say anything, with their stupid dress code. i hope not, because i dont want to be in pain with my feet, just because of their stupid dress code. we will see what, if anything, happens with that tomorrow.