People Really Really Suck, They Are All On My Shit List

i really hate people, i have come to understand that. people arent good, they pretend to be your friend but they arent. and then there are people that are even supposed to be your family, either by relating to blood or marriage and they are bad people too, and deserve you to hate them. for example the friend from work that wasnt able to make it, and didnt bother telling me until i called her and still didnt even tell me for sure if she would be showing up, didnt even show up to work today, and she had said that she would be there and give me the present to give my son. but of course, she didnt show up for work today. then my sons grandfather (my husbands father) finally came by to see him and talk to him for his birthday (he didnt even bother even calling him to wish him a happy birthday) today, which was almost a week after his birthday (it was on the 1st) and then he gives him a really cheap gift, which he didnt even need anyway because he had already had one of it, which if he had bothered to call and ask us we could have told him that. so anyway, that was that. one family member i was impressed with was my husbands mother, who sent him a package with toys and clothes in it for his birthday, and she also called him on his birthday to wish him a happy birthday. then another person on my shit list is my husbands sister, who i used to be really close with a few years ago, but ever since we moved back into together havent been, that is another really long story though. not only did she wait until the last minute (the night before at 11pm) to say that she wasnt going to be able to come to the party, but then she didnt come to his party, didnt have a present for him (i guess) and she didnt even call or see him or talk to him for his birthday. which is b.s. so that is my rant on the family members. my mom and dad were awesome, they had a party for my son on his birthday. and my aunt sent him a card and money for his birthday. and that is all the family that i really have that is mine and not through marriage. i also have my grandmother, my one living grandparent left, but she lives in a far away state and she isnt doing very well. i could continue ranting about everybody that i am upset with, especially about my sons birthday, but i am not going to. they know who they are, slimy piece of crap people. there are a few that i excuse for not doing or saying anything for my sons birthday, and i dont fault them at all, and this isnt directed to them, but then there their are the other pieces of crap that i cant stand right now, and dont even want to talk to. i wouldnt even be talking to my friend that the guy is staying with, but for obvious reasons, like he only speaks spanish, and she speaks spanish and he is staying with her, i have been talking to her. that and the fact that she owed me money that i had lent to her, that she had promised to give back to me on saturday at my sons birthday party, which she didnt end up going to. so now she said that she had for me on sunday, but i said that i would go get it on wednesday. and she said okay, that she should be home so hopefully she is actually home and will still have the money. of course, it will probably cost me the whole amount that i lent to her just to get to her house, with gas prices the way that they are, and her living about a half hour from me. but when i lent it to her i didnt think that i would have to drive back to her house to get it back. honestly i dont even really care that much about the money, if it wasnt for the guy, i would just wash the money away and out of my mind, because i would want to be done with her right now. but instead because of the guy, i am even going to drive there on wednesday, dont know if he will be there or not, or what will be going on if anything, or if i can really see him see him, but i am going to drive there, and if i dont get to see him or whatever, hopefully after i go all the way there and come all the way back home, i will at least end up with like 3 or 4 dollars extra after i have to replace all the gas that i had to use to get there and back. i havent heard from him (or her) since sunday when i called her and she said that she had the money for me and i had said that i would be able to go over there on wednesday to get it.

my husband upset me today, which is something like what else is new. but this was really upsetting to me. he had been saying to me that once he got two full time jobs, and got back on his feet with being behind in the rent, that i would be able to stay home with the kids. now granted he didnt say how long that it would be until i could actually do that. but he did say that it would happen, that he understood why i wanted to do that. today he told me that he gotten the second job at night (which would replace the other one that he had recently gotten), so by the way there goes my nights out on the weekends i would assume. so i got excited and said oh that means that i would be able to do what we had discussed, but then he said oh no, that wasnt what i said, i said that it depended on what happened with that company taking your company over, and you having a job, and blah blah. so in other words it would seem that he was talking talking talking about nothing will come out of it as usual. it just makes me so miserable sometimes, because this isnt the life that i intended to have or wanted, and i seem to be stuck in it. my kids are the only things that keep me going, if it wasnt for them, i dont know what would happen to me.

well, luckily today at work they didnt say anything about my shoes, which was good because i am trying to let my feet heal and get completely better before i attempt wearing regular shoes. so today i wore the sandals, and they felt good. okay i am done ranting, at least for tonight because i am getting tired, and know that i need to get some sleep. i am sure that i will rant more tomorrow, because of the mood that i have been in lately.