Birthdays, Birthdays

yesterday was my son's birthday, he turned 4 years old. i didnt really have that much for him yesterday, because his father was working two jobs, and also because everyone else was at work of course because it was during the week. and also because i have a birthday party planned for saturday at 7pm, and i am actually having the party done this time too, i am not really doing my own thing like i usually do. so i am getting charged per child who shows up. i have invited 8 kids, including my two children, but i dont really know if the kids are going to end up showing up or not, who knows. i have some maybe's and not really many definite answers that they are for sure that they are going, so whatever happens happens. i have to pay per child that shows up, so the less that show up the less money that i have to spend, but i would like it if all the kids would show up, or at least almost all of them, because what is a party without a lot of kids to play with. i am not very impressed with the way that most of the people have been reacting to this party, and answering me with knowing about going or not, is it so hard to give you a definite answer, i dont think that it is, but i guess other people do. but anyway. so i worked on his birthday and he stayed with my mom as usual on a tuesday, and then when i got off work we had a cake at my mothers and sang happy birthday to him, and he got to open his presents from her. then i took him to walmart and bought my present for him, and gave it to him of course, because i let him pick it out. i also got him a present from his father (out of my own money of course) because he had wanted to give him a fishing pole so bad for his birthday and wasnt able too. so i was nice and did that. then tonight, my sons father was home, and we had dinner out for his birthday which was nice, and then we came home and had a fairly nice night. up until the kids went to bed, and my husband (sons father) started to vacuum the house, and he broke the vacuum cleaner, because instead of doing what normal people do, especially ones with kids, which is pick up everything off of the floor, then vacuum, he didnt do that and just started to vacuum. so he ran over a plastic tie back from the backs of toys that hold them on the cardboard when you first buy them, and he said that it broke the vacuum and it is my fault because i left it on the floor. so i said to him that was from the kids opening their stuff on the floor, and that i hadnt left the things there. so he was arguing that i should have cleaned up after them, and then he said that i should have also been watching them when they were opening everything. so i said that he should have watched the floor that he was vacuuming and also cleaned it before he did. so he said that he wasnt going to buy another vacuum so if i didnt, the floor wouldnt get vacuumed until i bought one. so that is just great. never mind that i am the one who bought this one, and the last one. so i am frustrated with him, he started acting like such a you know what tonight. he is behind in the rent this month too, of course, what else is new. our rent is 1025 and he paid 300 and that is it so far. so he is 825 dollars short on the rent, and he is going to keep being behind too unless he does something about it. and tries to really save his money instead of spending it. so anyway, he was ranting and going on and on about the broken vacuum and just generally complaining about everything, so i finally couldnt take hearing it anymore, and i put on my headphones and started lisitening to music so that i didnt have to hear it anymore. and i guess that he finally got sick of hearing his own voice with no one answering him and shut up. thankfully.

well, on an interesting and unexpected note, on saturday night i did end up going over my friends house, the one that i had mentioned before that i was probably going to go over to her house and see, and it was a good visit with her, she is very stressed and upset, she has a lot of things that are going on right now, and she said that me being there had helped her. so i really hope that it did. but the unexpected thing is that i ended up hooking up (i guess is how to describe it) with her husband's cousin who is staying in their house right now. of course this is an interesting situation because he is from dominican republic and doesnt speak hardly a word of english. and of course my friend was having to translate a lot for us because we really didnt understand a word of what the other was saying. then he is younger then me, he is 22 years old, no kids, nothing like that. a very unusual thing for me was that i had sex with him that night, on saturday night, the first night that i had met him and knew him for. of course it was awesome sex, and it was really good. and he is really gifted and well endowed. but that is beyond the point. it was very unlike me to sleep with someone on the first night. then i went over her house again on monday night, to give her some food and a couple of dollars to borrow to get medicine for her daughter, and me and him ended up having sex again. and again, it was really good, and he is really skilled. the whole situation is a little strange to be in though, with him not speaking english, and staying with my friend. and not even residing in this country. so this definetly doesnt sound like something that will be long term at all that is for sure. sounds really short term. i dont really know where this could lead. i am not trying to really think about that right now, just trying to i guess live in the moment. i am also trying to be really careful with this too. more on that another day. i am going to try to get some much needed sleep now.