I Forgot To Post This

about the guy that i have been seeing, hooking up with whatever. i am trying to keep repeating and reminding myself that it is just a fling, and cant be anymore then that. (even though he was expressing his affection for me on friday night with my friend translating) because he doesnt speak english, is 4 years younger then me, though thats not that much of an issue, and he is going back to his country i believe very soon. so i am just trying to remind myself that this isnt going to go very far. because i dont want to get hurt when it doesnt go far, or just ends at where it is now. because i am sure that is what is going to happen. so i need to keep reminding myself that this is just a fling, and to enjoy it while it lasts, or if it happens no more to just enjoy what was had. and then of course, i have to ask myself why i keep reaching out to guys and sleeping with them, and having sex with them, what is making me do this. lack of affection, a need to be loved, a desire to have more? be happy? okay this is getting way to deep, i am going to try to go to sleep now.