The Updates

well last night i had my webcam on for the first time with my yahoo messenger, and the amount of guys that were talking to me at once was amazing, i think i had at least 6 at once. it was funny. tonight i had it on for a while and just had 2 guys at once, then just one. the one that i have been talking to tonight i have been talking to for a little while, he seems nice and everything but who knows. i dont really like men and am pretty much scared of them totally of them hurting me now. my ex didnt come through as much for me with money like he said that he would he only gave 60 dollars more then usual for the month, but at this point i guess that i should be thankful because any little bit helps right? i am just hoping that my husband comes through like he said for money to help me with the groceries for the month and with the money for the extraction. i also have of course my appt for the procedure with the obgyn in the morning on friday, and i have to pay my copayment for that too. and i am sure that isnt going to be very pleasant either. he borrowed money from me yesterday and told me that he was going to give me back all of it today, and now he said that he is going to give me half today and the other half on thursday. i dont know why he cant just keep to what he says i hope that he isnt starting back with his old ways again. cause right now i cant take that. my parents problem with their car wasnt fixed, but luckily they said that because they had said that they would help me out and drive me home that they still would on friday after the dentists so that was nice at least hopefully that works out. havent heard from HIM in a few days, he wrote me then i wrote him back on 12/31 havent heard from him since, his my space does say that he was logged in on 1/01 and the interesting thing is that his relationship status got changed from single to in a relationship. weird. it is almost like he cant make up his damn mind. or maybe everyone (friends, family) saw me as a friend on his my space and said that he shouldnt be talking to me again anymore, who knows. i am just so anxious about friday that i cant stand it, i am having that procedure in the morning with the obgyn then in the early afternoon i have the appt with the dentist/oral surgeon to have my tooth pulled. and i am in pain with my tooth so bad, i had a hard time falling asleep last night. and it hasnt stopped, this pain, sometimes it gets worse and sometimes it gets better, but it is always there, a nagging annoying pain at times, really bad at others. i told my boss what was happening and that on friday that i was going to have to have the wisdom tooth pulled, and i didnt know how i would be on monday, like if would be able to talk on the phone of anything like that. so she said something like we would see and figure it out or something like that, so i dont know, all i know is that if it hurts really bad to talk or i am really swollen and cant talk i am not going to try to. and i really hope that she wont have a problem with that, cause i guess that is the way that it is going to have to be.