Not As Much Ranting, Just Acceptance

i am accepting everything that is going on in my life, and i have to try not to stress myself out or get myself as upset about them anymore. i went to my doctor today, and she said that i need to not be that stressed out, because my stess is what is causing my headaches and chest pains, i could go into complete details of the medical reasons of why that is occuring but the short version is that i need to not be as stressed out anymore, because it is bothering my health. the doctor did do an ekg and as far as that goes it came out normal. my lungs with regards to my coughing are okay, she said that the coughing is probably just from my asthma and allergies because she doesnt hear anything else going on. so i guess that was one piece of good news, even though the cough does bug me at times, at least it isnt as bad as it was before thats for sure. these chest pains are killing me though, they hurt really bad at times. she gave me pain pills to take but they can make you drowsy so i dont want to take them during the day, maybe at night. speaking of things that i am trying not to let myself get stressed out with but is happening anyway, my rent is due in like 2 days i have to drop it off in the office, and now my husband is starting that bullshit saying that he doesnt think that he is going to have enough to pay the rent, and that i might have to take some money out of the bill money to help him and then he would have to pay it back. so i ended that right then and there and said that i didnt have any money saved for the bills, cause they already got paid, he didnt have any response that one. except to say that he really hoped that he was going to make it because he didnt know how much his paycheck was yet from the day job cause he didnt pick it up yet, he said that he was going to cash it tomorrow. so there you go, how am i not going to get stressed out about these things, even though i try so hard not to let it bother me or get stressed out about it. and then he had said that he was going to be using the cash that he was making from his night job to help pay for the rent cause he was knew that the day job check wouldnt be enough. so he worked today and instead of bringing hom 75 dollars like he should have he brought home 30 to give to me to hold for the rent. absoluetly ridiculous. well, lets see what happens tomorrow with the check.