Caution..Ranting Follows

if you dont want to read a blog which is going to be basically be filled with me ranting and nothing else, then please dont read this. save yourself. cause i need to rant and just get it all out. so here goes....my husband is really bugging me, irritating me mostly, and i have vowed to not let him get to me, and not to really let him piss me off, and i have been doing really good at that. but i am going to let loose here with all of the things that he has been going lately that are bothering me. today i went grocery shopping, spent the day with kids, and cooked for hours, i made a huge spanish dinner, with a seven layer dip, enchiladas, mexican rice, flan, and arroz con leche which is rice with milk translated, it is a version of rice pudding. so between all of those things, that i made, which all came out really well, i was cooking for hours. he got home at about 4pm, and i warned him not to get full on beer and to make sure that he had an appetite, i had also told him what i was making while he was at work too. instead at 6pm when it is dinner time and all the food is done, he takes two bites and says that he is full, cause he was snacking all day at work. mind you he also had three beers between 4 and 6pm. so that pissed me off. all that work and he didnt even eat any of it. and he knows that every sunday night i make a big meal, and he eats all day at work leaving no room for the food that i am busting my butt making. then he says to me do you mind if i use the computer, after he takes the two bites of food, so i said fine go ahead, just for a little bit NOT all night. so what does he do, at 6:30 he goes on and doesnt leave the bedroom until 9pm when i told him to get his butt off so that i could use it. so he is on all night, and doesnt do shit, spends no time with the kids at all, except to yell at them which is nothing new. it has gotten to the point with the kids, not really my son, cause he hasnt said anything yet, but my daughter really, when she finds out that he is home or that he isnt going to work she gets unhappy. she has actually asking him before, are you going to work tonight, and he says no, and she is like aww man, and is unhappy that he is going to be home. so that says something when your kid doesnt want the man who has acted as a father to her on and off for the past 5 years to be home when she is. that is really something. and then of course the fact remains that tomorrow is the 29th, my rent is due on the 1st, and he doesnt have a dime towards the rent saved yet, he is supposed to be getting a 2 week check from his day job tomorrow that he is going to be supposedly signing over to me, lord knows if he will really sign that over to me, and how much that will be. so i said to him will that and the money that you make from your night job that you are supposedly going to be getting soon be enough and first he said yes, and then he said hopefully i will. which doesnt seem that definite to me. so he of course had to make the comment of well if i hadnt given you the money for your teeth, but the thing is that after he gave me that money he had like 300 dollars left that he didnt save he kept it for himself and blew it, and then of course all the money that he makes from the night job, he doesnt save any of that either, so there you go, it would be his own fault. okay i am done ranting for the night, lets see what happens tomorrow with my doctors appt and also with his check.