My Weekend

my weekend was very tiring, i got up at 6am on saturday, worked from 7:15-11am, i would have worked more but my ex who was watching the kids for me, said that he had to go to work. so i left at 11am, but at least that should help me out a little bit on this paycheck. so then after that, i took the kids to burger king for lunch, met my parents there, and let the kids play on the playground. then after that did my shopping at walmart, after that i just got really tired, came home didnt even have the energy to cook, my husband went and got us a pizza. i helped my kids clean there room for like 2 hours. and then i felt so incredibly tired that i laid down in bed at like 8:45pm and didnt wake up again til this morning at 7:30am. so i guess that i really needed some sleep. i dont know. i felt better when i got up this morning though, which was good at least i didnt still feel tired. then today was cooking and errands day, i cooked breakfast, lunch, dinner and dessert, did 5 loads of laundry, and all the dishes. so i am tired now too.

and now i have to work 5 days starting of course tomorrow, and i am going to have to try to get in as much overtime as i can because i dont want to (nor do i think that i will be able to) work another saturday morning. and i really need the money. so that is what i am going to have to do. it is just so hard to pull myself out of bed at 6am. but i am going to have to do my best, and go to bed as early as possible too, so that i can get myself as much sleep as i can. well, i have my interview on weds for the other division of my company, and i am going to mention something to them about how i have to leave at 5pm everyday to pick up my son and see what they say. my stupid husband doesnt think that i should say anything now until i have the job, but i dont want to take the job, or say that i want it, and then have that problem. i was also told by someone (who isnt manager so that doesnt mean that this is true) that there was another position open in that division for a job, and that job would have me leaving at 5pm or earlier everyday. so i am going to mention that i am interesting in that job too, if it isnt open of course, but i have no experience for that job, so i dont know if i would even get that job. oh well, i guess it is all worth a shot, i still havent even figured out what i wanted to do about all this yet. i have picked out my outfit that i am going to wear, one of my business suits, the only one that really fits me nice, and looks good on me. of course, it is tighter then i used to be (which i am not even going to try to think about) and it is missing a button now, but luckily it still looks really good. my husband agreed that it looks good on me, so hopefully that means that it really does.

my husband has been on my pissed off at list, which is of course nothing new for him, but still. he is having issues at his daytime job, which is the one that pays all his share of the bills, and everything else that needs to be paid. and he got upset with them today, and basically walked out. so lets see if he even has a job left now. i am not even getting upset about it anymore, i honestly think that anything that he does wouldnt surprise me anymore. he still has his night job, which he said that he is going to work at like 5 nights a week or so, which is aggravating me also, because as it is as soon as he gets home from the day job when he isnt working at night he ignores everyone and goes on the computer. my computer. and talks to women and fools around with them, while i am dealing with the kids, eating dinner with them and everything else. and he isnt respecting my issues about it either, i told him that i didnt like him doing that. if he is going to do whatever he wants and not listen to me, and act like we arent married, then i am going to start doing the same thing again too. i havent done it in a little while, but i am most likely going to be starting again. it isnt really aggravating me that he is working, i am all for him working, but what is bugging me i suppose is that when he is here, he ignores the kids. and doesnt do crap, lets me do everything with them, and in the house. and only sits on the computer, doing lord knows what these women. well i do know what i just want to not think about it. i am not really concerned about like my going out or getting my nails done (my every two week treat to myself) cause he said that i could just tell him so that he would not work that day, it is just all the other things. i dont know, it seems like a lot of people have been annoying me lately, i think it is partially just me lately too. i have been having mood swings a lot, maybe it is hormonal. people that dont usually annoy me have been annoying me too, which is strange. so it is probably hormonal like i was thinking.

i have been very casually talking to HIM on my space, just idle chat really, nothing major which is good, i dont even want to think about him like that anymore, cause i know that there is no future there. havent heard from him a couple of days, which i really dont care about either way, cause like i said it is just idle chat, and now that i know he is alive whatever. a little while ago, his profile was changed back to in a relationship, so i guess something got changed or figured out again, who knows.