My Day

well, today was an interesting day. apparently people took seriously the poem that i had posted, and thought that i was going to commit suicide. i guess next time if i like something or write something like that i should put an explanation of why i am posting something like that first. which as i stated in the post after it, was just because i am worried about my health issues that i am having and the results that i am waiting for, and was just putting that on there because that is how i want people to think and remember me if something should happen to me not that i was going to make something happen to me and commit suicide. that is totally the wrong way to take that. and if i was ever to think that way, i would get myself help first i wouldnt do that. so thank you to the people that were concerned about me, but that isnt something that i am thinking of doing, cause if i have never considered it with all of the shit that i have been through in my life, why the hell would i consider it now. anyway. enough on that subject, that subject is now over in my opinion. i had a nice time when i went out on saturday night, me and my friend went out and had a nice time. i was really proud of myself, because i went all out dressing up, really nice hot outfit, hair done, makeup done, perfume on, the works. it was just us, the other girls that we usually hang out with werent able to go for various reasons, which is what we had figured would happen, so we were prepared for it. we went to dinner and then went to the billards club again, and had a nice time. i had one or two guys eyeballing me at dinner, but it wasnt that big of a deal. then we went to the billiards club, and when we were leaving i had a guy yelling out his car window at me. how classy. then on my way home from everything, i had a guy at 7-11 trying to hit on me, he was eeewwww yucky to me, so i just said that i was married so that he would leave me alone. it worked too. but here is a question. when you are a guy, and you are trying to hit on a girl by saying hey whats up, and they answer by saying nothing much and keep walking, why would you say to them whats wrong dont like black guys? like that is the reason that she wasnt interested, and not any other reasons, so for that i just responded, i am married and left it at that. but honestly though, what kind of question is that. had it ever occured to you that black or white the girl just wasnt interested? geez. some men are just ridiculous. i am trying not to worry to much about my test results, especially being that the doctor had said that from what he saw everything should be fine, and that he would be very surprised if it came back bad. so hopefully that is true, it keeps haunting me though, and i keep trying to keep myself busy so that it isnt in worrying me to much. i am not feeling that great still either, i still have this cough weird drip thing that isnt going way, related to the upper respiratory thing, i was coughing so bad at some points today that my husband was like wow that doesnt sound that good, and i said yeah it doesnt feel that good either. like duh. you can see how concerned that he was about it. on the plus side, he actually gave me the money that he had said that he would, paying for my teeth to be pulled and giving me the extra money to help me out with the groceries for the next 2 weeks. of course he had also said that he would give me extra money in another 2 weeks again for those groceries, and now he is saying that he doesnt know, but at least he gave me the money that he had promised me now, because i really needed it. i am just so happy that he stuck to something that he had said especially something that was this important. because my bank account was getting so low that it was scary. and now also another thing that has been worrying me is that the other side of my mouth is hurting, and the there is a part on my gums near my tooth that is really hurting which probably signifies an infection. so that is great. i just hope that it can wait a little while before i deal with it, cause i have too many things going on right now, and definetly not enough money.