Weird Stuff

well, my husband is still making me incredibly unhappy which is nothing new, after that huge fight that we had the next morning he said that he was sorry, and that he would act better and get himself more together blah blah not that it wasnt anything that i hadnt heard from him before. so i was like yeah yeah whatever. so anyway that was the day after the argument, and everything was okay, and not that bad for a little while. but then when we got his paycheck it turned out that he was going to be 75 dollars short on the rent even with borrowing money from someone he works with and other things. so he said that i was going to have to help him and that next week he would give it back to me. so i of course had to say fine that i would help him because what was i going to do, let us be that much short on the rent, and have that then cause problems. so i took the cash that he gave me for rent, and the money that i had to contribute to the rent, and i hid it in the house until he cashed his paycheck and we went and got a money order for it and dropped it off this weekend. so anyway, i hid it knowing how he is, and i went out last night. (more on that later). so i didnt get home until maybe like 2:30 in the morning, and when i get home he basically meets me at the door and says that i am going to be mad at him, and tells me that his friend came to the house who he had borrowed money from and that he had to give him the money. so he ransacked my bedrooom guessing that the money was in here, and found the money, and took 60.00 out of it and gave it to his friend. this is the story that he gave me anyway. so i was hugely pissed, and then not only that, he also supposedly went and cashed his check, and it cost him 20.00 to do that, yeah right. so anyway by the time that he was done with everything he was another 80.00 short with the rent, and i am so beyond pissed with him that it isnt even funny. he expected me to go up with that 80.00 to make up for him doing that and screwing up (this is in addition to of course the 75.00 that he had gotten from me, and then 100.00 that he had borrowed from his friend at work) so i said no, i dont think so, i dont have it, and he ended up just paying the rent short the 80.00 and writing them a note stating that we had financial difficulties and that he would give them the rest of it next week. so number one hopefully he stands by what he says and also number two hopefully they dont make a big deal out of it or give us late fees or anything like that. i am so done with him right now i swear. if i could leave him right now, or kick his ass out and not have a housing issue i would right this second. and of course he was handing me the same line about how this was going to be the last month that this was going to happen and that he is going to get everything straightened out and follow a budget blah blah. so yeah right. lets see if that happens. so i just said oh yeah thats good, and didnt say anything else, and he was whining that i wasnt supporting or encouraging him, i didnt even answer that one, cause my answer wouldnt have been nice, it would have been that i had supported him the past 10 times that he had said that and that i wasnt going to say anything anymore. so that is that now, he owes me 75.00. which who knows if i will see, some guy that he works with he owes 100.00 and then of course he still owes the landlord 80.00 and being that we were already late with it because we didnt drop it there til today, lord knows how they are going to react to that.

on a different subject, i was supposed to go out with my friends (girls) on saturday night (which was last night) but i wasnt able to because the girl that i really hang out with the most out of them, which is the one that we always go no matter what if the other girls dont want to go or now, pulled her back out, and was in really bad pain and not able to really walk or stand, anything like that. and so she couldnt go, so we said that we were going to reschedule for maybe another two weeks from then and see what happened at that time. dont know if i remembered to write it down here, but i had been talking to this guy for about two months online who is a tutor and will be a teacher (with degree) in a year, he is 24 years old. so anyway we had been talking for that long, hadnt exchanged phone numbers or anything like that for that whole time, and then he said that he would like to meet on the 3rd and i finally agreed to it. then like the next day i remembered that i had made the arrangements with my friends first, and asked him if we could change it too the 10th, and he said okay. so then friday night when i was online and was talking to him, i slipped and said to him that i wasnt going out with the girls after all that we had to reschedule, so he was asking if i wanted to have like a little pre-meeting on the 3rd then the original planned thing on the 10th. so i finally ended up saying yes, gave him my number and everything. and we ended up meeting last night. i told one of my friends where we were meeting and as many details as i knew in case something went wrong which nothing did, and everything was okay with that, but i did that just in case. it was cold and rainy last night, so i couldnt really dress up or anything, i just ended up wearing jeans, boots and a nice top. and that was it, i didnt mess with make up or anything. right before i started getting ready, i felt uncomfortable and everything, and figured out that i had a female issue that some of us get sometimes that really sucks and sure enough i did. so that sucked and made me really not in the mood to be meeting someone for the first time like that, but i went. i am going to go now, cause i am really getting tired and not feeling well, i have also been having stomach issues since yesterday too, i will try to put more on here tomorrow about everything that has been having especially with yesterday and the guy.