okay so today seems to have brought some time away from the guy so far. it almost 10pm, and not one text, phone call from him, instant message or anything. which is very unusual for him, but that is okay. i am sure that if i had tried to contact him in one way or another today that he would have responded or answered but i didnt even try. i felt just taking a step back, which is exactly what happened. and he didnt try to contact me today either, at least so far. which is fine with me. because i really wanted this time away. and to step back and really think about everything that has been going on and what he has been doing. not that i am saying that the car engine going thing was his fault and maybe i was a little less nice about that then i could have been, i am sure that i could have been nicer and more understanding, my mom made me see that a little bit today, i guess that i was blaming him a little bit for his engine breaking, which wasnt anything that he could have forseen and controlled, and fine some people when there car is on its way out dont want to drive their car. but what was really bothering me was the immaturity level that he was showing, with him going with whatever his dad said and his grandmother immediately jumping and bailing his butt out. of course there are other examples of his immaturity that were showed last night, like his not being able to figure out what to do with the reservations and then not knowing what HE was going to do about HIS car issues. like hello, its your issue, but he is doing just what my ex used to do, and depending on his family for everything and not doing anything by himself. and that used to drive me nuts cause he is a grown ass man, just like he was. the funny thing is that when i have always been so impressed with how responsible that he is, it always seemed like he was. but it took me a while to realize that he seems very immature, and i dont need someone immature, i have two kids already and a dog, i dont need another child to take care of, i need a man. so i dont know, lets see what happens, so far today i havent heard from him, and i am not planning on making any moves to contact him. let him contact me. it is strange that he hasnt contacted me at all today, but who knows maybe i was so drunk last night that i offended him and i dont remember doing that, i do remember that i was very annoyed and frustrated with him, so maybe i did who knows. i dont think that i was that drunk that i wouldnt remember what i said. but maybe i was, i dont really remember. i didnt have that many i know that much. i am going to let him contact me though, cause i really want to take a step back right now, who knows maybe he wont contact me again. and then i wont contact him either, thats fine with me right now, let him make the decision for me about it then. i doubt that will happen though, especially from the comment that i made about who knows what will happen in a month, and him wondering if i was going to be breaking up with him. but then again who knows. i guess we will see with that one. (i take the not contacting thing back as i was writing this he went online and instant messaged me, so we will see what he has to say now)
well today was an okay today, my kids aggravated me at certain points because they didnt clean up their room like i asked them too, but what else is new with that. that didnt surprise me any. tonight i took them to yet another birthday party this one was at chuck e cheese's and they had fun, this one was for the son of a girl that i work with. it was nice, except for me there wasnt anyone that we work with there, there was a good amount of people but it was all family and friends. but unlike other parties that i have been invited too where they treat you like an outsider and dont include you, here she really made us feel welcome. so that was very nice, i was very impressed with that. the kids had a really nice time, they ate a lot of food, pizza, wings, fruit from my salad bar plate, and birthday cake (and of course anything else that they could find). there appetites have been amazing lately. they did other things other then eat of course, they played a ton of games and got some pretty cool prizes there too. and when it came time that they do the dance up on the stage with chuck e, and they ask who wants to go up and dance with chuck e, my son had to go up and dance with everyone, it was so cute. the birthday boy was so cute too, he had turned 2 years old on thursday and they celebrated his birthday today. then of course today was my godson's birthday who turned 2 years old today, happy birthday james! i wish that i wasnt so far from you that i couldnt see you for your birthday today. but hopefully i will be able to see you soon. and your mommy, my best friend tyn of course.
i was trying so hard tonight to not mouth of to my ex and piss him off because he is helping me out a lot tomorrow, from bringing me to and from work, to paying for everything up front for them to fix my car, so i am trying not to aggravate him. but he is calling me up and saying the dumbest things, like how do i know what is wrong with it, what is wrong with, telling me to make a list of what is wrong with it for the mechanic, reminding me for the millionth time where the mechanic is geez. so anyway, i humored him enough while hopefully not pissing him off and then said that i had to go, because he was aggravating me and i really didnt want to piss him off right now. i can piss him off after tomorrow but not tonight or tomorrow thats for sure, my car has to get fixed. so i am keeping my mouth shut.
here are some pictures from today:
this is a picture of my dog, who crawled in my closet among all my dirty clothes,that needed to washed, and laid down. (this is something that he does whenever there is clothes in their on the floor)
these are the pictures from chuck e cheeses:
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