None Ranting Blog, I Promise

okay i writing this about other things that i am not going to rant about, i promise. i had a weird and scary dream last night, i dreamt that i was pregnant which would have been good, because i do want to have another baby, just one more, and then when i will be perfectly content and will tie my tubes. the scary part was that the father of the baby appeared to be my so called husband which is definetly not something that should happen now. not that i dont want it to happen, because i desperately want another baby, and with my health i really want to have one while i still can, because i dont know if i will be able to be soon. so i really badly want a baby, but with the way that things are going it just wouldnt be a good time. so as if that didnt make me kind of upset (and sad because i wish that things were right, and i could have a baby right now with no worries), one of the girls at my job's sister in law went into labor today and she was only 7 months pregnant, which just got me kind of weirded out, concidence? weird.

changing the subject, i have been hearing a lot about childrens deaths lately, one of the occasions i actually spoke to a man who had just lost his 4 year old to health reasons. this has made me make a vow about my children, i have vowed to try to be more patient with them, and do more things with them and participate instead of just watching or being a referee which i usually i am with them. because it has really made me realize that you never know what is going to happen, even with me with all of my problems, i never know what is going to happen. (especially what is going to happen next month). so that is my vow, to sum it up it is to be more patient with them and to more things with them (participate). not that i was really a bad mommy before, not at all, i tried to do as many fun things on weekend as possible to make up for the things that i cant do with them due to working. but i am just vowing to try to be better, because there is always room for improvement right? so that is my vow. last night because my daughter was good in school for the week, i had promised her that we would do something special. so said that we were going to have a game party, and we played several games of candyland, and had snacks while we were playing. both of the kids liked that a lot. then tonight because she was good today and last night, and mostly just to have fun, we had movie night, i rented a movie for them curious george, which was cute, and made some quesadillas and gave them some cookies for snack foods, and they had fun watching the movie and having those snacks too. amazingly enough, my son even stayed fairly still to watch the movie. i really have no plans this weekend, other then my usual grocery shopping and the other store that i go to almost every week, so i guess that we will see what happens.