The Past-Poem

The Past

There are times in your life,
where you can't help thinking about the past.
You try to see the future,
but you can't think through what has happened.
You may think that you are starting to get over it,
but then something may happen that may make you remember again.
But maybe the problem is,
you only remember the good times and everything that you shared.
You don't remember the bad times,
or what caused the problems that you had.
You try to remember all the bad things that have occured,
and the reasons why what was said, was said.
But somehow it is all forgotten,
and the only thing that you remember is the good.
You try really hard to remember the bad,
because maybe that will ease the feelings that you have.

Then, just for one time, you get the one thing that
you have been missing and wanting.
You get that person back, just for this one night,
for a brief time.
So what should you do during that time?
You don't spend that time talking about the future,
because you have both established that there will not be one for both of you.
So you talk some about the past, and that person asks if you will be theirs,
just for tonight.
Of course you agree, because you would be stupid to decline what it is you have
been wanting,
even if you know it will be just for a short time.
But you make sure that there will be no regrets from the person who asked you that.
That is agreed upon, and the night continues.
But even though you probably won't have any regrets,
you know that afterward it will set you back in getting over this person.
Because during that night, when you were just each others,
without any other thoughts or concerns,
you are reminded of everything that you have lost and can't have back.
The hard part is that before all this happened,
you had come to terms with that.
Now you have to work on doing that again.

So now you have to go through the whole process again,
of trying to get over it,
the regrets, the pain, the heartache, and the rejection of knowing that,
in the end, someone or something was choosen over you and your love.
All this night proves is that all the feelings that he claimed that he had for you do exist,
and yet the confusing thing is that, beyond this night,
he won't honor those feelings.
Instead he would rather just end it now, again,
stating that this is the last time,
and that he has made his final decision.
So now that is something, again,
that you have to accept and move on with.
And you just hope that this time it doesn't hurt as much,
or take as long as it did last time to get over it.

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