"I Don't Just Lay Awake At Night Asking God To Get You Off My Mind"

or do I? i had such a strange dream last night that it was disturbing. i dont remember all the details anymore of course because they fade, but when i woke up it was so vivid. and the stranger thing about it is that lately (probably in the past at least 3 months) i havent been remembering any of the dreams that i have been having. this dream was about HIM of course, and somehow he came knocking on my door, and i answered it, and he was there. and he said that he wanted me back. and i agreed, but said that he would have to hide for awhile because i didnt want my husband to know. and he said well why dont you kick him out and have me live here, and we can be together here instead of looking for another place. and i said because the rent here is too much for us to both afford together. so then he said well we will talk to the landlord then, and ask them to lower the rent, and if they dont want to then they will just have to kick us out, and we can find another place. and then i remember my relatives sitting on the couch in this mobile home which is where i guess i was living then, and them telling him that they really dont want me to be with him, because they want me to be more taken care of then that, and not to have to be so tight with everything. and another thing that i remember in the dream was his truck that he had and still has sitting out front of the mobile home while all this was going on. have i been trying not to think about him so much that my subconcious is pushing him into my dreams? how weird.