Conversation Postponed (Supposedly)

well HE called on time as promised (i was very suprised that he called so early, i was expecting him to call later in the night) and he said that he knew that we were supposed to be having our conversation tonight, but he asked if we could postpone because he was having a sort of family crisis at the moment with his family, and i said that was fine. and then he said (i didnt ask) that the family crisis was that his mom and his stepfather were going to be getting seperated (or divorced i cant remember) but anyway, he said that they were all talking about it, so he was wondering if he could call me on another day in the week. so i said okay, either on a tuesday or friday, and he said okay, so lets see what happens. watch him come up with another excuse then. who knows. i am pretty certain that i know what the conversation is going to be, so i guess that it doesnt matter how much he postpones it or if we ever have it, because either way i am am pretty sure that it is going to be him not getting into a relationship with me again. like he already said. so what is the point in even having the conversation anyway? probably none.

and now, to make things even better i feel like, in addition that what is already wrong with me, that i might be getting like a virus or something cause i am feeling even worse then i was feeling before. so that is just great. i wonder what his mom and stepfather getting seperated or whatever will mean to me, in relations to a possible relationship with him, probably nothing, cause he already made how he felt abduntly clear. now even more he probably wouldnt want to leave, because now his mom wont have his stepdad. whatever. i wish that me and him had been able to have that conversation today and get it over with, but now i am going to be thinking about it. at least if we had the conversation i would have been able to get it out of my head. and work on getting him out of my head, cause i am sure thats where the conversation would have went. well, again, we will see what happens on tuesday or friday. if anything.