Getting Better All The Time

well my mood definetly seems to be improving daily, i am not snapping as much at my children, i dont yell as much about anything, and i dont get upset as easily. things just dont upset me or easily depress me like they used too. so that is good. the real test for me came today when i had to go back to the doctors due to a health issue that i had that i thought had went away that came back. it is unfortunately very annoying and is painful. sure enough the doctor said that i had it again, and gave me medication to take that should make it go away. about two weeks ago, i would have gotten so depressed that this had came back, and that i wasnt feeling well again. but instead i took it very calmly, got the medication at the pharmacy and have been starting to take it and have been working on doing what i have to do to get better soon (hopefully). i also have been taking the time to care more about myself, my appearance, and have also been doing things a lot more with my kids. i bought my daughter an easy bake oven for christmas and she hadnt gotten to use it yet, so i opened it today with her and we started baking a three layer cake. (which is very time consuming using this thing). so we completed baking the cake (i even let her stay up a 1/2 hour later then her bedtime to make it) and now we will frost it tomorrow, and eat it of course. my son i talked to a lot today, for being a two year old (he will be three in a few months) he has a lot to say if he knows that you want to listen to him. so me and him had a lot of interesting conversations today. as for the medicine and how well it is working, i am sure that the ultimate test will be tomorrow when HE is supposed to call me, and when i have to hear the same stupid excuses again about why he doesnt want to get in a relationship with me again. but i think that i am just going to tell him, if he starts carrying on about it, and upsetting me, that if he has made his mind up that is it, i already told him everything that i had to tell him and i made all my points to him, and that if this is his final decision then there is nothing left to say. and there will never be any going back no matter what. i really dont want to drag this along anymore then it already has been, if this isnt what he wants, which it definetly doesnt seem like it is, then i need to start moving on. i am also supposed to be seeing a therapist next week in the mid of the week, i got the whole babysitting thing straightened out, so that is good. i wouldnt say that i am looking forward to it, because i am sure that it will just bring up old memories, that i have been trying to forget, but at least it will be making me on my way to hopefully going back to normal.