Time Out Without My Husband?

well, that is definetly something that i need. because yes, once or twice a week i get the night to myself, but then i am stuck in the house with my kids. so i need sometime for just me. so tomorrow night, even though it is a sunday so i am not going to be able to be out too late, i should be going out for a while. my first stop is to a certain shop, to get a certain something done that my husband was saying for a while that he would get upset with me if i ever got it done again. but i guess over the past year he has chilled out some about it, and now said that if that was really what i wanted whatever, he wasnt going to get mad. i dont even want to say what it is until i have it done, i dont want to jinx it or something. anyway my friend is supposed to be going with me, and then we said that we are going to go somewhere afterward, dont know where yet, but hopefully that all works out okay, and it is a nice time. i am getting more and more upset with my husband, i told him today that i am not going to take more of this anymore, that he needs to get his butt straightened out. and he said, as he has many times, that he will. i am sure that you have now figured out that he didnt sign his paycheck to me and let me handle it like he was promising me last week. no, instead what he did was about the same thing, and he messed up the money again, and spent it all very quickly or did something with it who knows as soon as he got it the same day. i am so upset about that, that it isnt even funny. i just honestly dont know how to handle this anymore. he wont let me handle things so he keeps messing them up, and then he either just barely makes the rent (like last month he was short 40 dollars). this month if doesnt straighten up fast, he is probably going to be a lot more short then that. and i really cant/dont want to do this anymore. i just cant see the point in hm being around anymore, i dont love him, i am sure that i would feel differently if i did. i have been back with him and living with him for almost a year. october 24th makes a year, that is also of course the anniversary of the hurricane that changed my life. and during that almost year, i have been helping him out almost every month with various bills and everything else, he did it on his own maybe 3 or 4 months out of the 12. that is horrible, he just cant seem to hold on to job, and the ones that he can hold, dont pay crap or give him as much hours. i just dont know anymore. that is all i can say for today. that i and i am still upset about my grandfather.