Saturday, September 23, 2006

I'm Nervous

so that guy that i have been chatting with and i met online today again, and we have been chatting for like 5 hours straight. and we have arranged to meet next week, at a restaurant in our area, because we only live like 15 apart or so. i just have to tell him tomorrow night, he said that he would be online then, the definite date, it is between monday and tuesday night, depending on my husbands schedule which he should be telling me tomorrow night so that he can watch the kids when i go. i am incredibly nervous about this, i am scared that he is going to be a weirdo, or it isnt going to turn out okay, or anything like that. or maybe we will really hit it off, and then in the long run it wont work out and he will end up hurting me just like i have been hurt in the past. and i have been hurt sooo bad in the past, i am scared that will happen again. i dont know. and then what if he doesnt like me? well i guess that would be no tragedy because i already have a husband and also there are plenty of other guys out there. auuughhh. i am getting way ahead of myself here i am sure.

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