Life Can Be Sad Sometimes

well, today was a pretty sad day today. i found out that my grandfather, who my dad went up to see last weekend, and i of course wasnt able to see because i had the kids, died last night. i found out today, i dont know why my dad took so long to tell me. that is sad for me. it isnt like me and him were incredibly close, but i have a lot of good memories of him treating me good when i was little. he also came to my wedding, (the second one) to my now husband. (the butt head) i am telling you, what i really need to do is get some money together or figure something out so that i can get rid of him. he is getting on my last nerve today, i swear. he has been being mean to the kids, yelling at them constantly, and making my nerves shot because of how unhappy i am right now. but anyway, getting off that subject. my grandfather was a good man, he always treated me nice and was good to me. and my kids too. my kids were his first (and only, that i know of) great grandkids) and he was always sending them things for their birthdays and holidays. and he went out of his way to go to my wedding, and gave us a very generous wedding gift. which was nice. i guess i am even more sad that i didnt get to not only say goodbye, or even see him lately or talk to him, i guess that the other thing is that i only have one more grandparent left, which is my father's mother. and she is really not doing that good right now either. my mothers parents have been gone ever since i was 14 (my grandfather) and when i was 20 (my grandmother). and now my grandfather on my dads side now, when i am 25. and then of course my mother's brother (my uncle) when i was 23. i am just sad right now i guess, thinking about all of the people that i am never going to see again. and this is just one more person added to that list. i am going to try to look around for a good picture of him if i can find one, so that i can post it up here. i dont even know how old that he was, i am guessing that he was in his 80's, but i dont know exactly how old. i am going to try to find out. i have just felt so much loss, and then my husband made me feel even more wonderful by saying that death usually comes in threes, and who is going to next. and he offered me like no sympathy, you could tell that he really didnt give a crap. not even like he tried to act like he cared, he just let you know that he didnt care.