"Something With A Little More Edge And A Little More Pain"

"She's My Little Whiskey Girl, My Ragged On The Edges Girl."
from "Whiskey Girl" sung by Toby Keith

alright this sucks. it seems like this is how my life always is, whenever i look forward to something i never get it. or something goes wrong. or i have it and i lose it. something always happens. i am so upset right now. i was supposed to be going out tonight, which i have been looking forward to ever since like a week ago. i even got my nails redone 3 days early (last night) and got a pedicure last night (which isnt something that i usually have done, i usually do it myself). and then when i call my so-called friend today she says oh by the way you are going to have to drive here and meet us, because we arent leaving from my house and going in one car like i had said that we would. she claimed that it was because of she had a spare tire on her car, and didnt want to drive on it but still, it sucks. the other girl had a car, but she didnt want to meet me she just wanted to leave. so that was it. she said oh well just come meet us, she wanted me to drive over 50 miles (one way) , by myself in an area that i dont ever go to, that is also a bad area. i have only been in this area (with other people) like 4 other times, and 2 times out of that i have gotten lost. then i actually went near this area once by myself now that i think about it about a year ago, and i got lost for an hour. so i, of course, ended up not going. which my husband was of course thrilled about, because he didnt want me to go in the first place. (because heaven forbid i should have fun without him being right up in what i am doing.) so my night consisted of laying down in bed because i had a migraine, and then just checking my email and watching tv. oh! and lets not forget the ever exciting balancing my checkbook and paying some bills. so, all ranting aside, this was a huge depressing disappointment. so tyn, if you call me, and i dont answer my phone, it is because instead of being out having fun like i told you i would be, i am most likely sleeping because i have nothing better to do.