A Night Out, Maybe (But Not Alone)

i spoke with one of my friends who used to keep my kids for my overnight and she said that she would watch the kids for me on friday night, and that i could bring them there after i got off work. the reason that i started looking for a sitter so bad was because friday is my husbands birthday and he is turning one of the big sets of numbers, 30! so we should be going out together for his birthday, as long as everything goes okay with the sitter. (fingers crossed). i am pretty sure that my son is going to be upset that i am leaving him there, and throw a fit which is something that he used to do, but being that she hasnt watched him in like 6 months, i really hope that it is not worse then it was before and that he can get over it quickly like he used to. i really would hate to cancel my night out because my son wont stop screaming. that would really upset me. so fingers crossed for everything. ever since around september, i have only been out a total of one time by myself. and that was jan 13th, and we all know what happened that night. other than that, that was it. me and my husband havent been out together without the kids since we have been together at all. so hopefully this will happen.

my job was okay in the morning today up until maybe around 2pm or so, when i had already done all of the things that i had been given to do that i could do with0ut needing assistance, then when it came to the things that i needed help with, and the help wasnt available, i started getting frustrated. today was only my 7th day there, (or a total of a week and 2 days) depending on how you look at it, and they are leaving me by myself to do things which i dont mind, but it seems like when i need help everyone is busy (through no fault of there own) and it is hard to receive help. so once again in the afternoon today, i started to get frustrated and depressed. maybe it is just me, and maybe that is why i am feeling like this i dont know. maybe they dont expect me to be that good, or to know that much right now, and i shouldnt even be worried about it. i dont know. i am trying to feel better about this, and just accept the whatever will be will be attitude, but it is very hard.