I'm Dreaming...

last night i dreamt of HIM. i dreamt that he came back and he wanted to be with me and i was trying to decide who to be with either him or my husband. and my husband actually said something to me like i just want you to be happy i dont care who you pick, which i found really interesting because in real life he would probably be ready to kill if i picked someone over him and he knew about it. i woke up before i had made my decision so who knows who i would have picked. so that dream had be fairly upset and was on my mind all day. and then my daughter made it worse when out of nowhere she said to me that she misses HIM. so i was honest with her and i said that i miss him too but i told her about all the good things that we have in our lives now. (which trust me was really hard for me, because lately i find it really hard to find the good in anything). so that was it, and she left it at that. but you know what that tells me? it tells me that if my child, who isnt even 6 yet, is telling me that she misses him, it is no wonder that i still miss him. maybe i dont feel so stupid about still not being over him yet. i dont know.