And Some Of The Truth Comes Out

well well well big surprise. i caught my husband today smoking a cigarette and on further inquisition i found out that he has been smoking at least 1-2 per day. which isnt good considering that he had quit because it was taking away his energy and it was also hurting his lungs even more then they already are. a doctor already told him that his lungs were double in size and that if he kept smoking he would carrying around an oxygen tank. so obviously, this is not one of the most smartest decisions that he has ever made. this is definetly a very dumb one, when he lit up that first cigarette when he was doing so good. i am not mad at him, i am really not, i am just very disappointed in him, because he was doing so good. and the last time that he quit and started smoking, he did start off slow like this, and then he started back to his smoking a pack a day again. and i just realized that my son was trying to tell me that his dad was smoking again and i was thinking that it was from something before. (he is just turning 3, so it is hard to understand him sometimes). oh well, there isnt much that i can do. if he is going to smoke, he is going to smoke. i am not his mother, and i am not going to act like i am. if he wants to smoke, then whatever. i have enough stress going on with this ticket, going away, work and everything else. i am not going to worry about this. the only thing that i can say is that i was so proud of him because this was a real accomplishment for him, and it was something good for his health, and he ruined it. i am just so disappointed in him. that is all. very disappointed. it makes me very sad.