I GIVE UP

i really do, i give up. i surrender, i am waving my white flag, i want a truce i give up. i understand that my life is never going to be easy and something is always going to happen, but really does it have to be one thing after another? i can only handle so much, i am so ready to lose it, and then what do you think happens after how upset that i was last night? i got pulled over today and got a ticket. lord knows how much the ticket is going to be for, because it isnt listed with a price next to it. i suppose that i should be happy that i didnt get the other 2 tickets that he could have given me and i just got this one. but still, why does it always seem like it always happens to me. know lord knows how much this ticket is going to be for, and lord also knows how i am going to pay it depending on how high it is. and there goes me trying to keep points off my liscense too, because from what i have heard this certain offense carries 3 points. wonderful. and i have been trying to find out how much this is going to be, but because it is saturday everywhere is closed. i am just hoping that when i try to find out this information on monday that someone will be able to tell me, or you know what? probably with my luck i will be left in suspense some more and not know how much i am in for. and this time i didnt even play around with it either, i told my husband about the ticket and that i wasnt sure how i was going to pay it, and i said and if i cant pay it eventually they will suspend my license and i cant go to work. and he said (i dont know if it was sarcastically or seriously) well i guess i will just have to get a second job in a fast food restaurant to pay for your ticket. i really dont care what you do, but you are going to have to help me pay for it, if you want me to keep going to work everyday. because license suspended equals not being able to drive to get to work everyday. and being that he doesnt have a license it isnt like he could drive me to work.

and then if it wasnt good enough right now, i found an anklet that HE bought me on a special outing that we had all went on as a family for a special occasion. so i have been wearing it on and off which has been nice because i really liked it but it is also bad because it makes me miss him and everything that i had then and the way that it was then.