Reflection On The Men I Had/Have In My Life

i have been with (had sex with) 10 men in my life. and as much as most people like to admit the correct amount of how many people that they have been with, that is my honest total. I am currently with man number 10. I was going to reflect on the guys that I have been married to, but being that there is a lot of comments on them in here in other posts, i figured that i am not even going to go there, except to mention them as part of the 10 that i have been with. so here we go

#1---Neil, who also happens to be my first husband, father to kayla, was married to him for a little over three years. i dont know why we ended up getting married anyway, i think that it is because i wanted to get out of my parents house. anyway, he had a bad temper, and i am sure that i wasnt ready to get married, and it just didnt work. i seperated from him in december, and was divorced in february.

---I am not really counting this as a number, even though technically it would be #2 and all the rest would move down a number, I went into a guys house, and wasnt interested in anything, I was on strong medication, and that happened, over the years the details have gotten fuzzy, even fuzzier then they were in the beginning, so I really dont know if it was willing or unwilling, even though I remember having the feeling that it was willing at all, and that I said no.

#2---Jimmy, we slept together one time, it was okay, nothing hugely earthshattering because we were in a hurry, he broke it off with me, then a week later or so called me and said that he had dumped his girlfriend to be with me, i told him that i wasnt interested anymore. i hadnt even known that he had a girlfriend, when i was first with him. we were never really in a relationship or anything like that, it was just a thing.

#3---Albert, who was an alcholic, among many other issues, he was also a good amount older then me, and was just interested in me for a you know what and that was it, which we did of course, but it wasnt even that great with him ,he was big and didnt know how to use it, i broke it off with him because i finally realized that he was interested in only that and nothing more substantial. i think we only lasted a month the most.

#4---Frank, my sons father, who is also my now legal technical husband, I am not going to go into huge amounts of detail with him right now, because lord knows there is a ton of things in here about him on other blogs. legally we have been married for five years, we were seperated for two of those years, and I am not even going to go into everything. you can refer to previous posts because there is a lot of things in here about him.

#5---Matt, oh my god, where do i start, i know that there are several posts about him in here. he had ocd and was an alcholic. i really really cared for him, but the fact that he had those issues and had no drive to do better, was starting to split us apart and get me upset, and then there was a hurricane took everything that we had, and he never came back from where he was on vacation. we lived together and were together for basically a year and a half.

#6---Odie, he had issues, we were together about a month, he dumped me saying that it wasnt him it was me. we ended up getting back together, for i think another few weeks, and then it was ended again, i think by him because he was hardly contacting me and was avoiding me. and it didnt upset me at all the last time because i saw it coming and i wasnt that impressed with him anyway.

#7---Tony, he had even more serious issues, was living with mommy and daddy and they were supporting him, and he wasnt taking care of himself. and he lisitened to everything that they said and made absoluetly no decisions for himself. we lasted i think maybe two months, if that, and he broke up with me before i broke up with him which i was going to do.

#8---Elliott, the spanish guy who didnt speak english, and who my friend had to translate for me, we were short lived but the sexual time that we did have together. wow. it was incredible. it was short the time that we were together though, maybe a few weeks the most. and it wasnt a relationship by any means, it was just a you know what.

#9---Mike, then of course there is mike, my boyfriend that i have at this time, there are plenty of posts about him that are current. so far we have been together about six and a half months.