Saturday, June 03, 2006

Even More Reason To Not Like Men

my husband has been being such a pain in my butt lately, it isnt even funny. i cant even laugh about it, even if i wanted to. he has been horrible. he keeps saying that i am hardly ever home now, (mind you 2 mornings a week for 2 hours i go to the gym, and then 2 nights a week for 2 hours i go the gym as well.) other than that, whenever he is home, the other 5 nights a week, i am home. and also lets not forget of course that i work full time 40 hours a week at my job that i pay my share of the bills with. so it isnt like i dont do what needs to be done. two nights out of the month, for about an hour and a half the most i go to the nail salon and i have my nails and pedicure done. so i did that last night, and on the way home i stopped and got my husband something to eat for dinner and also got him a beer that he said he wanted. and he was still whining that i wasnt home, and saying how much he does for me. and then of course in a couple of days i am going away for about 5 days to another state. and he is really getting bad about it now, saying that i shouldnt go, it isnt right that i am going somewhere without him. and he also saying that this is it, after this i dont go on vacation without him. and that is that. yeah, okay, like i am really going to listen to that. who among us hasnt gone somewhere on vacation without their spouses. and it isnt like i am not taking my kids with me that i would be leaving them stuck with him. no, i am taking them with me. so whats the problem. the problem is, as usual, he needs everything to be all about him. and this isnt about him.

my daughter told me today that she misses HIM a lot, and that she wishes that HE was still with us and not my husband. so i asked her why, and she said because he was very nice to her, and always treated her and my son very well. and that my husband is mean to her. i wouldnt say personally that he is mean, he is just a lot more strict and at times more irritable then HE was. so she started to cry, saying that she was nice and she misses him and why doesnt he come back. so i said that he wasnt that nice in the end because he didnt come back. and i probably shouldnt have said anything mean about HIM to her, because she has her good memories of him, but i couldnt hear her carrying on about him. i miss him too, and i felt like crying with her. my son doesnt mention him anymore, which is good, he probably doesnt remember that much about him like she does. because she is three years older then my son, and is going to be six soon. i miss him a lot to, and the way that i was treated, but towards the end we were starting to go downhill. there was a lot of things about him that were starting to upset me, and i didnt like them. but he was good for me, better then my husband probably is. but there isnt any use in thinking about that, because it is over. and i am never going to have him back.

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