Again And Again And Again

i dont know, HE really has problems that is all that i know. after the conversation that i had with him yesterday i thought that he had come to an understanding in his head that probably calling me in the middle of the night when he is drunk isnt a good idea. well apparently he didnt reach said understanding. because last night/this morning apparently he called me a total of 3 times, the last one being at 1am. and i didnt answer because thankfully he didnt wake me up out of my sleep. so why he was he calling me again last night? who knows, probably because he was drunk off his ass again and feeling sorry for himself and everything that happened and missing me. i have to wonder if now, in the 8 months that me and him have been apart, if him or anyone else in his so "wonderful" family has now realized what could care that i always took of him. he was never like this the whole time that we were together which was over a year, he never flipped out like this, i wouldnt let him leave the house drunk, and i would never let him get to this point. and he never did. but now look at him. i wonder if anyone notices the difference between the way that he is now how much he has been going down, and the way that he was then. probably not. i know that i was so good for him. and i really do still love him, because even though i didnt call him today to make sure that he was alright after the phone calls last night i really wanted to because i am worried about him, and i really feel sorry for him. i just want the best for him. because evidentally no one up there gives a crap about him, not his brother who he is living with who let him wonder around the city drunk off his butt, and end up in a ditch before finally having someone else tell him that he should probably look for him, not his mother who knows that he has all these issues, and definetly not his so called girlfriend. because he is calling me and telling me that he misses me, and all of those things. and also of she cared so much about him (like i always did) i never let him get like this, even when i wasnt living with him. so the excuse that she doesnt live with him is no excuse. but with all that and still loving him, if he called me tomorrow and said that he wants me to move up there with him and be together again, i really am not sure if i would do it. (not that i think that will happen.) because this is reminding me how irresponsible and unstable that he is. and i dont think that i would want to start my life and my kids life over again, and take them away from their fathers with him being like this and not knowing if i can help him go back to the way that he was. where he can at least manage and balance his life and issues. now if he was to say that he would move back here and we could be together, that i might do, i would be more inclined to do that so that i could still maintain me and my kids lives that we have here. (but i REALLY REALLY REALLY doubt if that would happen.) and even still that would lead me to a lot of consideration to, especially the fact of he left me once he could just as easily leave me again. and all these issues that he has too. not that i think anything like that would happen. just that i guess my mind has been changing lately. before i would have said without hesitation that i would have moved to where he is to be with him and started a new life or i would have been with him here if he came back, now both of them would have me majorly hesitating first before saying anything.