My Dreams...HE Just Wont Leave Me Alone In Them

a couple of days ago i dreamed that i was pregnant but it wasnt HIS, (so maybe it was my husbands) but when i was very pregnant (so it really showed) i ran into HIS best friend somewhere and i wanted him to know that i was pregnant. why i dont know, maybe so i could show that i was happy or something. even though i dont think that i was.

then last night i had very vivid and it made me unhappy when i woke up. me and HIM (he was naked) were in bed and we were talking about doing something in it. we were talking about having sex, and he said that there was something wrong with his thing (dont know what, but he said that it hurt, it wasnt an std though). so he said that it would be better soon, and so we set a date to see each other and also to do that a couple of days from then. i asked when he would be leaving and he said that he had class (what class?) and that he would be leaving in 7 days. i asked him if he was still with that girl that he was with, and he said that he wasnt seeing her as much, that he needed to do other things. so that was my dream last night. i have to wonder why i am having these dreams, and what they mean. i know that the major reason that i am having them is because he is on my mind. i am sure that he doesnt think that he is on my mind because i dont make any contact with him, even when he calls me and then hangs up. but he is on my mind. that is for sure. he hasnt made his monthly hang up/no message call to me lately, i am sure that he will be, probably next weekend being that he didnt do it this weekend. but if not, then i guess that will make it easier for me to start working harder and harder to push him out of my brain. i dont know why i dreamt about talking about having sex with him and getting ready to, it isnt like me and my husband dont finally have an okay sex life. sure it can be routine and boring at times, but it is satisfying on some levels. so at least i am more relieved then i used to be. so that is good. the last time that i actually heard his voice and spoke with him was the beginning of march, when he started that crap with me again. which got me very upset.