Please Just Leave Me Alone

today was not a bad day, it was father's day. so happy fathers day to the two fathers of my children. i have to say that i treated them both fairly well. my daughters father, who i am no longer married too, got presents and a card. and as he had requested got to spend two days (from this morning until tomorrow evening) with my daughter. unfortunately she is really sick right now, and isnt getting better like the doctors had said, instead she is just getting worse. she threw up last night, and threw up with him tonight. so i told him that tomorrow morning he is going to have to take her to the doctor, and demand that they do something and give her something to make her better, and that he wont leave there until they do something about it. so hopefully that will get something solved if that is what he does. because if not then i am going to have to take a day off work, which with my jobs policy on time off work and my just becoming permanent with them less then a month ago probably wouldnt be good, but i guess if that is what i have to do, then that is what i have to do. we will see what happens with that. for my sons father (my husband who i am with/living with/whatever) now, i cooked him breakfast in the morning, took a nap with him in the afternoon, and took him out to dinner at a place that he picked. i would have taken him out to lunch to with my father but he didnt want to do, so i said that i would do whatever he wanted for me to do for him for dinner. and i did. which was nice. my son (who was the only kid that i spent most of the day with, because my daughter was with her dad) was fairly well behaved today which was good. because usually, his personality is that he is really whiny and doesnt listen to anything.

part of me really does wish that HE would just leave me alone now. after last weekend and me talking to HIM and everything and him basically acting like he didnt give a crap, i really just want him to leave me alone. a part of me, of course, will always i dont know love him i guess, but all in all of he doesnt want anything to come of this why doesnt he just leave me alone. i thought after the end of our conversation and him saying i could call him and me being like whatever, i thought that would be it. but it wasnt/isnt apparently. he called me last night (really this morning) at around 2:17am. which is a lot later/earlier then he used to call me. so i am definetly willing to bet that for him to call me that late, he was definetly drunk off his ass. and i am sure that if i had talked to him then, i would have heard the truth about everything, and that the reason that he was so cold, and not caring last time that i talked to him was because he wasnt drunk. whatever though, he didnt leave me a message as usual. i dont know what i am going to do about it. probably nothing. what is there to do? i am over over 11 hours from him, and he has never gave any indication now that he wants to come back here or me to go there as i have offered many times. oh well, it is just that everytime that he calls me like this, it just gets to me and gets me upset.