More Of The Same Bulls**t

more of the same stuff, just a different day it seems. i got good news about my job today, not only are they making me permanent but i am also supposed to be getting a 2 dollar an hour raise. yeah! that is awesome news. so you would think when i told my husband that he was thrilled. right? sort of. his reaction actually was, oh that is good that means i can start paying less towards the bills because you are going to be making more right? so i said wrong, and the usual argument was on. it seems like he always has to argue with me about something and he is always telling me that i am acting snotty or like arguing. which isnt true. and he is always snapping at me and acting like an a**hole. i have been so ready to just get rid of his a** lately, at many different points that it is starting to scare me. he actually (this is a miracle) left the house for about a half hour today, and it was beautiful. i really wish that he would like find something to do on the other 5 nights a week that i am not at the gym that would make me soooo happy. or at least 2 or 3 of those nights. something. i miss being home by myself it so much more peaceful and quiet, i dont have to hear him whining about what i am doing, when i am going to bed, etc. so anyway i am really excited about the whole job thing, this is really good news. because i have been so short of money per month, i have been having to dip into my savings, so it will be good when this happens that i wont have to do that anymore. so this is way good news. i cant wait until it all becomes official and happens. i havent seen my therapist anymore, i joined the gym and i have been going to the gym 2 nights a week for about an hour and a half (two hours with travel time) and also the other 2 weekend mornings a week the same amount of time. so with my husband complaining (severely) and being aggravated with me for not being home for those times, so i just havent been going to the therapist. i have gotten my insurance straightened out so far, so i could go if i wanted to, but i havent, mostly because of the husband reason. i had a dream last night that i was going out apartment hunting and i was looking at all different ones, but i wasnt able to see who was with me, i know that someone was with me and that he was male. that was all i knew. with the way that i have been so happy with my husband lately i am sure that it wasnt him. i havent heard from HIM lately, if he keeps following his usual pattern i am sure that i wont hear from him again until the beginning of june. i guess that we will see.