Cause I'm Dreaming......

i had an interesting dream last night, from what i remembered He was in it, and i was with him, and it seemed to me that we were back together and i was just soooo happy about it. i also remember that i broke a nail and that got me upset in my dream, but i just remember being with him and being happy. that is what i mainly remember. and i woke up, and i wasnt upset because it wasnt an unhappy dream, but i just wished that it was real life. i wish that i could have that type of feeling of such happiness. that would be something i want to have. but it seems like i dont have it. well things in july are supposed to be really improving, going by what is supposed to be happening with my job and insurance and everything like that, so i really hope that it does. i need everything to start going my way, so that i dont have to by getting upset about everything. and lets keep our fingers crossed that everything with my husbands job keeps going okay, because this month i had to "help" him out with over 100 dollars so that i could make sure that the rent got paid. i just dont know how much more i can take of this. every month it is always a certain amt that i need to "help" him with. it is starting to get really annoying and cost me money. this month he is supposedly giving me the money that he is "borrowing" from me back, i really hope that he does. because instead of saving my money in case of emergencies that money has been going so fast. that if this keeps up and something happens i dont know what i am going to do. yes, it is only money, but the problem occurs when you dont have any money, and something occurs that you need money for. i just hope that if something is going to happen that it doesnt happen until i am able to get back on my feet. because i am having a really hard time right now making everything happen. that is probably why i am so stressed out and upset is because of that, hopefully everything will calm down soon. i really hope so because i dont know how much more of this i can take. also hurricane season has all started and we all remember what a great experience last hurricane season was for me, i know i cant go through all of that all over again.